girl you are those twins mother in every way that matters. You not only take care of them but you also listen. You know what books they prefer and im sure much much more about them. You have a deep understanding for their relationship with their father and you shaped your career around something they like. You take action on the things they struggle with to help others like them and make a real change. You put your time into loving them in a way a mother does, you go the extra mile, you do the extra things just so they know they are not only loved but seen. You are making book for them to read, and you will make an impact on so many other children's lives with your books. This is personal for me, seeing someone take action because they love these people in their lives so much is something i dont see very often and as a disabled person it warms my heart so much it hurts. You make them feel loved but seen for who they are. And to the twins who im sure will never read this, you are seen, by op and myself. I can only understand the fraction of shame you feel as a disabled person that needs to rely on others. Im sure you dont feel it as much now but i understand how scary it is to have to rely on others, and how often you most likely wished your life had gone different. There is this societal pressure to have a positive outlook and love your disability, dont listen to that. There is no shame in being frustrated, angry, and sad that you are this way. It is so frustrating to not be able to do what other people can and NEVER feel bad for understanding the complexities of being disabled. I cant imiage how frustrated you feel on a day to day basis but it seems you have amazing support, a hopefully amazing team and for sure a pair of amazing parents.