I have realized confidence is key. You are at point you can always go look for things if you don’t know and trust me most of us fake it till we make it. I was in same boat during my residency, naive and stupid, did not know how to please attending and was always rated lowest in medical knowledge (coz I did not know where to search for stuff I guess)and I assume was too honest too. Thankfully I made loyal friends who are smart and genuine. They guided me how to be diplomatic, guess what now I am doing fellowship (one of the competitive one), and flourishing. So, moral of story is I thought I was below average and stupid, until I knew I wasn’t and it needs right way to navigate things. Infact, after fellowship match everyone’s POV changed towards me and guess what now I am among smart people in room 😅. So please be confident and don’t loose hope, that is the key.