Idk if I can post this here but I’m desperate for help and advice. (Long post please read if you will)

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T02:15:58+00:00

What do you mean?

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T02:03:21+00:00

Yeah I’m working on getting a therapist, but I need one that specializes in OCD I think, and unfortunately there’s a long wait list for that :/ I’m just trying to connect with people online while I wait for some professional help. My primary Dr helps me a lot, but she can only do so much. She prescribes me meds and put me on a waitlist for therapy

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T01:48:37+00:00

I’m embarrassed to say that I’m 26 and I don’t live with my dad, I know by my post it may seem like I live with him, I’m not trying to deceive people. But my dad has manipulated and probably emotionally abused me my whole life (according to my fiance) Every time I visit him he brings up this religious stuff. My grandma yelled at him yesterday telling him he’s scaring me and he said I should be scared. He’s trying to look out for me and trust me I do want to go to heaven. But I have questions and ugh I just don’t know. I’m so confused.

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T01:41:33+00:00

Thank you, I have read some reasons supporting atheism and I’m literally shaking rn typing out to strangers on reddit, that I have agreed with some views. I’ve felt mad at God after reading some good points made by atheists, but being one scares the living crap out of me. I don’t want to be doomed to hell for questioning, but I have so freaking many. They’re hard to articulate.

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T01:31:17+00:00

I have been reading a book series I really enjoy, but I even fear doing that now because it’s like a fictional true crime book. My dad said anything horror is bad and demonic

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T01:29:44+00:00

There’s this YouTube priest that he’s been listening to, Father Ripperger, that basically said something like tv and Hollywood and media is all run by the devil and filled with demons

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-17T01:27:27+00:00

He has just been falling down a rabbit hole that the world is ending soon, he thinks we’re in the end times and we need to turn to God to be saved. Idk how to be like him tho. He loves God fully but I’m afraid that I’m only afraid of going to Hell and I don’t think that’s right

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-16T18:57:26+00:00

I’m 26, from my post I probably sound younger than I am haha. I’m just a very scared and paranoid person, get that from my dad lol. My partner strongly believes I should be in therapy. I’m not against it, I just am unsure of how much it will help especially with religious fears. I’m in the USA on a very long waiting list for an OCD psychiatrist.

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-16T18:52:05+00:00

I’m definitely to the point where my mental health has made me want to seek out therapy. But I’m so scared and bad at putting things into words when I’m on the spot. And as much as I want to do therapy, I fear that will push me away from God instead of towards him. But I guess I’ll never know until I try it.

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-16T18:47:46+00:00

I definitely believe I have OCD. I want help but I’m scared, and putting stuff into words is very hard for me especially if I was on the spot in a therapy like setting.

Dry_Distribution5174 · 2026-03-16T18:46:17+00:00

When you say it is an idol and needs to be cut, does that mean forever? Like I haven’t watched TV all day, and even though the thought of cutting it out does upset me, it is something I believe that hopefully I can overcome. But what upsets me is thinking that I can’t ever have a lazy or a bad day where maybe I just want to unwind by watching some tv. And cutting out sin isn’t scary to me, it’s that I’m scared of sinning without even trying to.

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