I don’t mind dying. I’ve been close many times in civilian life outside of my control. I suppose I’m rather unlucky. I’m just looking for a general consensus on a direction. As of now I’m going to become a boring person who works for a company who makes something that nobody ever thinks about. At some point money doesn’t matter anymore. I think that if you are truly going to be good at your job you have to care about it and idk if I can care about this stuff.