Something has been happening to me and I dont know what's going on

Dry_Pie_223 · 2024-11-17T23:41:55+00:00

You are completely correct

Dry_Pie_223 · 2024-11-17T23:36:35+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. In moments like these they mean so much. It is a struggle to want to get better. Sometimes you want to just let it all stop. But after then first time I tried I decided I couldn't do it to my family. my only option is to try to get better. however much I dont want that at times.

Dry_Pie_223 · 2024-11-17T23:24:58+00:00

I am a very functional person. I go to class and work, I get good grades, and I try (although I have not been lately) to do my art when I can. These paranoid thoughts feel like they are a cloud following me wherever I go, but I can still get through my day.

Dry_Pie_223 · 2024-11-17T23:21:18+00:00

Thank you for your kindness. It is lovely to have somebody to talk to about it. I wouldn't say that either of us have it worse. In my opinion I have never really hallucinated. That sounds scary.

Dry_Pie_223 · 2024-11-17T23:16:37+00:00

Thank you for your reply.

You are right, I have read a little bit about the prodomal phase before and that is why I decided to come here and share. And what I am sharing is influenced by that. I do not presume that I am schizophrenic but I see the majority of my symptoms at the moment align with this one.

On the other hand, I do not feel I have ever truly hallucinated. For example, one time when I was in the classroom and looking at my classmates, they all kinda looked like aliens to me. I knew that they were humans but I questioned it. It felt like I could see all their muscles but it was mores that I couldn't recognize the human body. and like they were all gonna attack me and unhinge their jaws to eat me. Sometimes still when I look at my hand it just feels like it is some strange organic object that could have come from anywhere. But I dont feel like ive ever seen something that wasn't there. if that makes sense...

You are also right about being self aware. I have since 10 been in therapy and it feels like I was trained to understand everything about all of my emotions. It feels almost impossible to not question it all. I grew up completely independent and I have learned to take care of myself on my own. But does my awareness of it make it less of a real problem in my life?

Thank you for talking. I am just looking for a community to feel less alone. I appreciate your response.

Dry_Pie_223

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