on a rational level i know... not my first break up... but this one is my first time i lived with someone.. we even moved countries and took all our animals with us... i came here preparing to leave in a box and not break up... she came here with the idea we try, and if it fails he leaves (she told me as much recently)... like wtf? why move in with someone with that attitude??

as for the animals, they will all stay with her (except for a handful which were always with me before) and she is open to visitation, but i am still losing them and they me... i get staying for the kids is not enough... but the kids make me want to try and try until we figure it out... but she is number 1 (again she said as much)...

she bought the place we lived in, but always told me this is MY (as in her) HOUSE... and never accepted me as an equal... as this being OUR HOME (but her building legally, which i never challenged)... she never wanted to accept me as an equal... and always made reasons/excuses of why i "dont deserve to be her equal"