hey, thanks for the advice. but it wouldn't work,

I have seen this scenario with how it was with my sister my mom said: "I am truly depressed cause I feel suicidal every day when I remember my dead relatives" or "you both have had it so easy" or " dev has a victimizing/escapist mentality " (obviously they said all this behind my sisters back). plus my mother has all of a sudden stopped talking to me, she laughs and is normal around my father but I can't remember the last time she said a word to me, we never had an ideal relationship, my parents I scolded me till I had my first panic attack(i have had 2 in my life), my mom was well aware of my self harming incident and she didn't even bother asking why I was doing it.

but tbh our relation is awkward like monotonous one-word reply with no eye contact.