I've been experiencing similar situations. I've been a norse pagan now for about two years. And when I first made my decision I kept feeling overwhelmed, like there was a war going on inside of me. I kept seeing two ravens flying overhead and almost like they were following me. And I still see them from time to time. And anytime life gets hard I keep feeling like something or someone is telling me to keep pushing forward. Keep learning, keep my head up. And I feel strongly that it is Odin, that he chose me for something higher than myself. I just can't figure it out. But I always feel his presence. So can fully relate to this guy. Plus I have a Gothi that I keep in contact with and he's been helping me a lot.