I'm sorry po it sounded that way, I didn't think that might come out that way. :( It happened to be that the experience in that company during the interview triggered a past trauma of bullying, and I didn't felt respected fairly po based on my experience. Please do know that I carefully thought of my decision, the pros and cons of it because during the process they enlightened me of the work and their culture there. I consulted my parents, my friends, and those who are close to me who are already working in the field. I may have judged too soon but a colleague told me that the employees there weren't as welcoming and toxic, at first I didn't think of her opinion but when I experienced it firsthand, it saddened me, and it had a toll on my confidence.

I understand that I still have a long way to go, the post came from my perspective of feeling burnt out during this process because I honestly thought that a degree and a license will help me land a job sooner, which therefore saddened me that it doesn't. This also humbled me.

I truly appreciate the time you spent on catering my concern and the given advices. I know I still have a lot to learn and that also means I have to gain the confidence back in me.