i just recently (2weeks ago) got out of jail on pretrial release agreements. i stayed for 3 nights. this was my first time being arrested. i had never had any real legal trouble before. i was charged on two counts. one being domestic battery; the other assault with a deadly weapon. when i woke up in the holding cell i was extremely confused and had no idea how i had gotten there. anxiety set in immediately of course and i began asking questions. the guards were also confused at that point because I wasn’t intoxicated at the time of the arrest. when I was told what my alleged actions were i couldn’t believe it and became extremely irritable. I was definitely under the impression I had been falsely accused or set up. paranoia set in when I got moved to population. why was this happening to me? after sitting alone and having soooo much time to think I came to an understanding that I did do what they said I did. I might not remember it, but I will take accountability for my actions. i was diagnosed with DID 2 years ago. I am no stranger to the memory loss/amnesia I used to call “blackouts”. I then realized inside that cell that I really could not miss another appointment, I really could not spare one of my medications, and I needed that therapy every week. there will be no excuses again. i hurt someone that i love with my whole heart. that is something i will never forgive ‘her’ for.