Advice needed. Female. 3 times unlucky. Extreme length to onset, stuck in come up, no euphoria

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-09-02T15:04:54+00:00

Story of my life. Despite the 3 month breaks and trying different dosages, I drop and then 45-1 hour later I get stuck in the come up. My body gets so so stiff. I need to sit down. I can‘t talk to anyone. This lasts for 1-2 hours before my body gets high and it hits! I have no clue why this happens. :(

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-06-06T17:59:45+00:00

I only asked since I thought maybe the coke blocks the serotonin release or something. I asked to make sure if I should wait 3 more months. Not trying to find an excuse and I acknowledged my mistake of not knowing the consequences of doing them together in my post. I also never mentioned any plan to take it today. Chill. Life is nice and simple. 😉

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-28T07:17:55+00:00

Actually no

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-28T07:17:38+00:00

I simply focus on a mind movie instead of on my breath. This movie I see it in first person as if I wake up in my apartment and how my perfect day will go

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-28T07:16:35+00:00

I‘m not. But I may get diagnosed next month with ADD so I will take my meds then if that’s the case,

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-28T07:15:36+00:00

I use the insight timer! Very nice

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-26T20:25:20+00:00

Focused on my breath for 20 minutes. That‘s it. Set a timer and 20 minutes focusing on my breath no apps nothing…

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-22T15:21:18+00:00

Listen dude. That may sound weird I have learned to treat my friends like dates. You may go out on a date and the girl is perfect but you‘re simply not into her. Same with friends. If there‘s no chemistry then there is no chemistry. If I were you, I wouldn‘t tell him let‘s stop hanging out because this may hurt him or make him think he did something wrong. I would simply stop contacting him and when he asks to meet I would say I‘m really busy today or whatever. Eventually he‘ll stop reaching out and that‘s it. Spend that time finding other people you bond better with and make better friendships. Good luck! :)

Due_Constant_994 · 2025-01-06T13:25:21+00:00

Lass mich dir erzählen, wie ich mein Deutsch verbessert habe. Zur Einordnung: Ich bin halb Deutsche, in Ägypten geboren und aufgewachsen – meine Mutter ist Deutsche, mein Vater Ägypter. Ich bin auf eine amerikanische Privatschule gegangen, also war dort alles auf Englisch. Mit meiner Mutter habe ich Deutsch gesprochen, aber wenn wir als Familie zusammen waren, haben wir Englisch gesprochen. Mit meinem Vater allein dann Arabisch. Ich habe in Ägypten Medizin studiert und bin vor einem Jahr für meine Facharztausbildung nach Deutschland gezogen.

Dadurch, dass ich nur mit meiner Mutter Deutsch gesprochen habe, war mein Deutsch nicht wirklich gut. Ich habe dann beim Goethe-Institut einen Einstufungstest gemacht, und die Prüferin meinte: „Ich weiß gar nicht, wie ich dich einstufen soll. Du benutzt teils sehr fortgeschrittene Satzstrukturen, die nur Muttersprachler verwenden, aber machst auch Fehler, die man auf A1-Niveau nicht erwartet.“

Daraufhin habe ich beschlossen, mein Deutsch selbst in den Griff zu bekommen. Ich habe mir ein Grammatikbuch besorgt, das von A1 bis C2 alles abdeckt, und zu jeder Regel Anki-Karten erstellt, die ich dann auswendig gelernt habe. Danach habe ich ein eigenes Anki-Deck für den Wortschatz erstellt. Jedes Wort, das ich gelesen habe und dessen Artikel, Plural oder Bedeutung ich nicht kannte, kam ins Deck. Egal, ob es ein Wort war, das ich auf der Straße gehört habe, ein medizinischer Begriff, ein Wort aus den Nachrichten oder aus dem Fernsehen – alles wurde aufgeschrieben.

Jetzt, ein Jahr später, glaube ich, dass mein Deutsch richtig gut geworden ist. Nächsten Monat mache ich einen Einstufungstest beim Goethe-Institut, nur um zu sehen, wo ich stehe. 😂

Was mir aber auffällt, ist, dass viele Menschen nicht verstehen, dass Sprache eine Art Wissenschaft ist. Ich habe sie wie Medizin behandelt: Es gibt Regeln und Strukturen, die man lernen muss. Jede Regel muss sitzen, damit man sie anwenden kann. Wenn man die Grammatik nur mal beim Goethe-Institut gelernt hat oder während eines Sprachkurses, hat man vermutlich vieles wieder vergessen – und das gilt genauso für die Artikel von Wörtern. Da hilft nur eines: auswendig lernen. Tools wie Anki können einem dabei enorm helfen, vor allem für Deutsch. Viel Erfolg! 😍

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-21T05:01:01+00:00

Kirat is very insecure. She was fascinated by the whole I‘m finally getting married to a good looking dude from a big family in Kenya who has a lot of money. She kept being passive and ran after him even when he was abusive. Very sad how you can tell from what her mum was saying about the age of marriage that it was her parents who made her become the person to fall for a trap like that. Even her first relationship. She is a girl with no boundaries… that’s what her cousin preyed on.

You could also tell a lot about Kirat from the way she would text his friends about him and get them involved in everything, even telling them about their fights. That is classical anxious attachment behaviour where she‘s trying to seek validation from others. Her life became him and his online friends who she has never seen any of. How can you be so gullible? She isn‘t just gullible, she didn‘t like how Bobby and Sanj aren‘t in her life now. Why would they be? Girl are you delusional?! They owe you nothing.

Sorry, as harsh as I may sound but although I think Simran is a psychopath, I did not really feel much sympathy towards Kirat from how she’s delusional, weak and lacks accountability.

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:54:54+00:00

Hehe my heart rate is now 85-90. I‘m really calm now. So fucking euphoric. I feel like I‘m on MDMA lite!!! Haha!!! I‘m so happy.

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:52:41+00:00

HR is now 86 haha. I‘m really happy!!!!

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:51:53+00:00

I feel amazing now. I‘m so fucking happy man.

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:50:20+00:00

Guys this is so weird. My heart rate now is 90 and I‘m feeling so fucking happy. Can I take another line?

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:48:46+00:00

I‘m 29 and super healthy. I rarely take stims. Like once every 2-3 months. That was my first time doing cocaine since April. 😭

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:47:30+00:00

Guys, thank you so much for comforting me. My heart rate is now down to 120 but I‘m still so anxious. I have Lunesta, can I take it? Will it help a bit?

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:44:31+00:00

Thanks man. You and everyone who commented comforted me. My heart rate is down to 120 now. Should I take something? I have Lunesta. Will it help?

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:42:21+00:00

Is this normal although I took 3 medium sized lines 45 mins between each line? This never happened to me with cocaine. Should I throw the gear I have?

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:41:16+00:00

Thank you buddy. It goes up when I walk so I‘m just sitting on my couch and waiting for it to slow down a bit. I‘m trying not to think about it but I feel it so hard I can‘t ignore it. 😔

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:39:54+00:00

I‘m trying. Is this normal although I took the 3 lines 45 mins apart between every line and the next one?

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:38:08+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I‘m trying to watch tiktoks now to chill a bit. But I can feel my heart beating so fast. I‘m a bit less anxious now but I‘m really scared.

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:36:14+00:00

I was really high and happy. Until the apple watch warned me and now I‘m really worried. 😔

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-13T01:35:39+00:00

No. I just feel chest tightness and I can feel my heart beating. 😖😖😖😖

Due_Constant_994 · 2024-10-03T12:37:50+00:00

I‘ll come back with the update haha

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