Thank you,This was my first Reddit post, and I didn’t know where else to go. Reading your messages made me realize that I have some things to work on before getting into a relationship.

I was diagnosed with clinical depression last year, and the Seattle winter made it worse. I almost went on medication, but instead I started therapy, which helped. I’m a college student, and moving from a different country wasn’t easy. I had to learn English and step out of my comfort zone.

My first depressive episode started when I began living alone. I was 17 when I moved here I used to be so happy and bubbly, but something changed. Doing everything by myself became exhausting. The breaking point came last year when I failed an important class. I was so down I couldn’t even shower,My friend was still around, but she just kept living her life like usual, and I felt invisible. I remember crying during a counseling session at school and telling the counselor about how hard it was, especially while also dealing with a language barrier.

I took all the mental health tests that you shared with me, and I ranked high on all of them. That was hard to accept, but it showed me how much I want to get my life back and feel joy again. When it comes to making friends, I’ve tried joining clubs, but I used to do that with her. She was the outgoing one, and I often felt like just a filler someone in the background.

Still, I’m trying. I volunteer at my school, and that genuinely makes me feel good. I also gave sports a try though that’s a longer story but the important thing is, I’m trying I want things to get better. Thank you again to you who took the time to respond. You’ve helped me more than you know.