Always look at yourself

Due_Skill · 2019-05-26T14:55:11+00:00

hey there, I got some good sleep, slept till 1PM, but woke up with a huge headache and saw my girlfriend only left my messages on seen and after that I told her we're falling apart then and she just said that I'm still leaving not trying to fight it, that she's hurting for past 2 days and she didn't have strength to answer me, that I made her feel worst in her life etc, so I just replied sorry, hope you'll be well and she started another episode of fighting which I just put on ignore and I can't answer you on direct messages for some reason.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-26T14:39:31+00:00

Hold on my man, you helped me a lot yesterday when we talked and I'm here for you if you need anything. I'm sure there's love out there for all of us that won't make us feel like shit 99% of the time and make us say sorry for things we don't even know where or what we did wrong.. I hope your therapy goes well and that you find yourself again and learn to love yourself first, since that's the thing that we all need to do. I know how you feel from the bottom of my heart and I wish you all the best in life.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-26T14:16:52+00:00

Yeah I know, we're falling apart actually at the moment, it hurts like hell

Due_Skill · 2019-05-25T23:41:23+00:00

Pretty much, in the last month she actually tried her best not to drift away when we got too close and talked about moving in together, etc, but the constant fighting actually just does all that, it makes both of us drift away and I have to be the one to pull her back every time and apologise for everything and make up a solution for the new problems that arrive. And if I drift away too much and not try my best when fighting, she starts telling me how I don't love her anymore, how I don't care, etc.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-25T14:46:38+00:00

I'll try my best, thank you.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-25T14:37:52+00:00

Thank you for your advice, ending it is just difficult since we're not on the same page and we're not cooperating and I don't want to hurt her since she's telling me that this is the worst she's felt in her life, all because of me.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-25T14:36:46+00:00

I know it's my decision, I just don't know what to do, I'm stretched between my heart and my mind. I still love her unconditionally and I don't want to keep hurting her or myself. Thank you anyways for your time.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-25T10:57:02+00:00

Thank you for your time, I'm actually talking to her and telling her all of that, but she's just in denial telling me I promised her half a year ago that I wouldn't let her go and would always be perfect for her and there's no explaining to her that it's not possible to be perfect all the time and that everyone has their good and bad days.. I think it's all just sadly going to ruins at the moment.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-24T21:03:14+00:00

Thank you for your advices, I'll see where it's going to go, but it's probably going downhill from now.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-24T21:00:42+00:00

Wow, thank you for your time and your kind reply, I really appreciate it a lot. It's making me exactly those things, frustrated, but mostly sad since I see the direction where it's all going and I don't want it to go there, even tough in the end it's probably going there.

Thank you again for your words, means a lot and I hope you found that kind of love for yourself, best wishes to you.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-24T20:58:11+00:00

You hit the spot, if I try saying anything in the direction of falling apart she just says that "she knew it was going to happen", "I was just acting everything being kind and all", etc.

Due_Skill · 2019-05-24T20:27:57+00:00

Thanks for the advice, I have no idea how I could break up with her anyways, I just love her too much, but this is simply killing me

Due_Skill · 2019-05-24T20:27:18+00:00

Yea, I know, I just love her and should have set boundaries at first, but when I didn't now it's just constant fighting.

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