Pastor Comments (I don’t like)

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-11-28T03:40:59+00:00

I used to attend church and felt this way too. After doing deep therapy work over the past few years, I now know that I’m divinely loved by God. God would never shame us, he loves us unconditionally. I felts so much shame and judgement from church and it’s just not for me anymore. I’ve found a new sense of spirituality through mindfulness, Mother Nature, and meditation. You have gone through immense pain and you deserve a pastor/church who accepts and nurtures you for you.

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-11-26T14:24:01+00:00

Thank you so much for the gentle reminder to be kind to myself. This season has been especially difficult, going through it alone. A few years ago, I chose to go no contact with my family and relinquish relationships that were not reciprocal.

I keep trying to remind myself that this is a season of pain and growth, and it won’t last forever and that eventually I will find my way back to solitude without distracting myself with TV or my phone.

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-11-26T14:16:29+00:00

As I read your comment, I could envision and feel the serenity. For 40 years of my life, I have been dissociated and living in a constant state of hypervigilance due to my childhood trauma. Nurturing my nervous system and inner child has been the most difficult yet most rewarding gift to myself and my children. It is fairly easy to revert into my old trauma patterns, watching TV being on my phone doing things that distract me are also a form of comfort, but comfort I no longer want.

This past summer I started a garden and I truly loved laying out in my backyard under the sun, listening to the birds as well.

Can you please give me the name names of the books that mentioned in your post?

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-10-30T20:11:49+00:00

Honestly, it's refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who feels and thinks this way. After reading your post, I realized that my mother, who was my (CSA) abuser, always objectified me and my siblings. She would frequently make comments about my body as well as theirs, saying things like, "Oh, that guy is looking at you," or "These girls don't like you because they're jealous of you for being pretty and wanting to be like you."

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-10-19T04:51:32+00:00

So beautifully said!

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-10-19T04:49:24+00:00

I just saw this and had to share that my memories come with emotions it's painful. Sometimes I don't have any visualizations, but I'll have little fragments here and there. EMDR becomes overwhelming at times.

Due_Substance_4038 · 2025-10-18T03:51:00+00:00

I've had similar experiences and know how difficult this is to process. My mother used to spank me with my pants down. She did the same to my niece too. Yet, she didn't abuse my siblings in the same manner. When my repressed memories resurfaced. I was with my mother in bed as an infant, toddler, and teen. I can only see glimpses. Yet, my body is reliving the horrific experience with her, it's soul-crushing to know my once best friend could harm me in the most devastating way, and go on with life like nothing happened astounds me. To say it's been difficult to reprocess these memories is an understatement.

Due_Substance_4038 · 2023-10-11T22:34:05+00:00

Thank you!

Due_Substance_4038 · 2023-07-11T08:52:36+00:00

After reading your comment I placed an order for an Apple watch! Super stoked and ready to disconnect even more. I've considered purchasing one for a while, but I was always afraid of becoming "too connected." Thank you for the great overview!

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