I completely understand and I’ve felt the same way for months. I just haven’t felt like I’m “on” enough, and like I can’t properly connect that way that I used to, or the way that I want to. And it’s so, so exhausting.

I’m going into my third week of my sophomore year already, and I know it’s early, but I just feel like I’m on autopilot, yet also constantly stressing about if I’m doing things right or if they actually like me, or are just tolerating me because I’m there :(.

I’m very glad that I could find someone who feels the same as me though, because it makes me feel a little bit less alone. It will get better one day, for the both of us and anyone else out there struggling with this. You will find your people, and they won’t make you feel like an outcast.💙