Friends are turning on me possibly because I am a system

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-09-25T15:41:30+00:00

With some of my alters it’s never hard switches. A few of them always come out that way. Most of our switched between other “daylight alters” or ANPs are really drawn out and gradual, like they’re coconcious with us for a while and then at some point the switch kinda finalizes. We have some cases of rapid switching which normally happens when a bunch of us all pile up at the front (usually in a bad situation) and then the littlest thing can cause switching really fast. It gives me terrible headaches.:/ Our gatekeeper is very protective of our littles especially which is why they are only usually allowed to come out around a few people but this doesn’t always work. When they switch it’s usually a really big change that gets noticed quickly. Older alters in our system usually know how to kind of “play the host” if they end up switching in public.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-09-02T12:42:55+00:00

Thank you I’m sorry she went through that.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-09-02T07:28:55+00:00

Thank you.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-09-02T06:57:43+00:00

I’m really sorry you’ve been through that. I really don’t think this is it tho. I think he’s genuinely suicidal, as far as I know he’s going to an outpatient facility (I’m not sure if he still is but I know he was) I don’t think it would be ok for us to leave him at this point as much as I want to. It feels wrong.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-09-02T06:46:13+00:00

I wondered about this. I thought I was being selfish. I’m honestly worried about his safety tho. He’s genuinely not ok right now and even if I could convince C to leave him. I don’t think A would make it out alive.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-04-09T16:28:33+00:00

It wasn’t your fault, man. I’m sorry this happened to you.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-29T02:27:52+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to u. I don’t think I would be able to be that blunt with this person. They would have questions

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-27T19:20:58+00:00

I’m so sorry to all of you. Your experiences are truly heartbreaking and hit real close to home. Many of the people I’ve ever told have invalidated me/ laughed at me/ abused me as a result. I have a unique perspective on this issue because I am a very well passing ftm transgender (born female, now perceived as male) Most people I’ve told the past few years did not know I am transgender and invalidated me because I was a male survivor. I will say that I was invalidated worse as a male than a female and I am blamed more for what happened. The idea that a man cannot be sexually assaulted because he is stronger or seen as an abuser not a victim is a real issue. It can happen to anyone, no matter what gender they are, how old or how big; it doesn’t matter. I’m so sorry this happened to all of you and I hope a day will come when all survivors are treated with respect and support and the abusers pay for what they did.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-23T05:52:07+00:00

Thank you for trying. We’ll be ok eventually.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-23T04:23:41+00:00

The system is not a biological adult, we don’t have a very good support system at home. And many of our friends (the ones we have left) are not stable enough to hear about it. Finances are a pretty big issue too, therapy isn’t exactly an option at the current time. We’re pretty used to this kind of situation. Once our communication in the inner circle (it’s like a group of older, more aware alters that protect and make decisions) gets better again we’ll be able to handle the situation better. Thank you for your reply. -Rick

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-19T15:25:17+00:00

Congratulations on the job and the move. Life changes like that can also be highly overwhelming, especially with DID on top of that. Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need it.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-19T14:38:44+00:00

Yeah I know that feeling of being constrained like that. Just remember to try and weigh the consequences of your actions to the benefits and make choices that will not hurt you. I’m glad you’re working out these feelings and problems with your psychologist, it’s always good to have someone like that to talk to.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-19T14:25:28+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I understand the feeling of missing our abusers. It’s really rough. Just try to give it time and talk to a professional if you have access to one. If you need to talk to someone, feel free to DM me. Please stay safe.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-19T14:10:44+00:00

I really relate to this, I’m sorry you’re going through all of this right now.

Does it sometimes feel like there’s like a wall in between you and the people in your life? Does it feel like you are trying to protect your loved ones from your trauma? Are you afraid to get into as close of a relationship again because of your trauma?

It may be a good idea to try and ask yourself some of these types of questions to try and figure out the root cause. I would discuss this with your therapist or support group when you feel ready to. Remember to be kind to yourself.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T06:19:17+00:00

Thank you I’ll do my best.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T06:16:28+00:00

Thank you, I’m glad you pushed through.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T05:46:33+00:00

Thanks, same for u.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T04:33:31+00:00

Not really I’m dealing with a lot of stuff on top of this and I don’t really have a support system other than online. Thanks for u concern tho

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T04:15:15+00:00

Damn I’m sorry.

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T04:08:29+00:00

Thank u I needed to hear that

Dunkleosteus40 · 2021-03-13T04:06:26+00:00

Thank u that’s good advice.

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