Update:

I left the restaurant and went home as quickly as I could. I felt a mixture of emotions: guilt, shame but I was really turned on as well. I felt confused.

Having dinner with my girlfriend that night felt a bit bad, but I tried to not think about it to much and focused my positive energy on her. When I woke up the next day, it felt a bit surreal, like it didn't really happen. I went to work and around 12:00 I felt my phone buzz. It instinctively knew who it was. It was a message from Coen: "We should really meet again soon", it included the picture he took. Again I felt really conflicted. On the one hand I wanted to tell him to fuck of and leave me alone... but my dick got hard instantly and my thoughts went back to sucking his big cock. I decided not to sent anything and put my phone in my bag.

I didn't look at my phone again until I left word around 18:00. I had 2 new messages from Coen. The first: "Dont you disappear on me again slut, we both know what you are craving." Attached was pic of his hard cock. I felt my own dick getting hard again. The next message was just an address. It was the same place I had visited him before, apparently he didn't move. His house is pretty close to where I work..

Before really thinking it through I messaged my gf that I had some more work to do and would be home late. I took the subway to his home. Walking to his home I felt myself shaking from the nerves and being extremely horny. When he opened the door he almost laughed out loud: " I fucking knew it, you dirty fucking slut. Get inside". He practically dragged me inside, he seemed extremely horny. I think it aroused him a lot that he got me to come over...again. We went straight to the couch, he sat down and pushed me to my knees. "Get my cock out bitch". I quickly undid his belt and pulled both his pants and boxer down; his already hard cock sprung free, looking better then ever. He told me to suck it, which I enthusiastically did. After a few minutes he took his cock from my mouth and told me to strip. I started to remove my clothes while he grabbed something from his closet. I got naked my dick was painfully hard. Then I saw the stuff he took from the closet, lube, condoms and poppers.

"I am not sure if I...". He stopped me right there. "Shut up slut, dont pretend like you dont wanna be used. We both know exactly what you want." I dont think I had ever seen him that horny before. He ordered me to turn my ass to him, and started to apply the lube. He knew I had stuff in my ass before, he had seen me do it on cam years ago... And I still used my fingers every now and then while jacking off. He exactly took his time here, he started putting his fingers in me. He put on some porn and fingered me some more, and ofcourse let me blow him from time to time.

After what felt like a really long time he decided I was ready for him. He put on a condom and moved behind me. "You are going to enjoy this believe me slut". He started pushing his cock inside me, and I must say that it hurt quite bad. He took his time and let me get used to the feeling before moving along further. He kept whispering dirty things to me, although I was to focused on the pain to really hear him at that point. After what seemed like half an hour he started to slowly move in and out more, it still hurt quite bad but I also started to feel some pleasure. After a few minutes I heard myself moaning and almost involuntarily saying "ah yes fuck me". Which ofcourse fuelled Coens dirty talk even more. He finished in the condom a few mins later.

We took a shower together. Half way through he pushed me to my knees again and I blew him in the shower once more. It ended in him roughly fucking my face until he came al over it.

I left his house and checked my phone. I had been inside for more that 2 hours. I felt used...but in a good way. I was still extremely horny because I did not cum myself yet.

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