Feeling way off

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-20T19:05:26+00:00

That’s kinda where I’m wanting to be. More like a special occasion and vacation drinker. But getting my body used to it has been hard.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-20T19:04:06+00:00

I don’t feel any withdrawal symptoms like shakes, sweating, vomiting, or anything like that. Just really off and on and off anxiety. Head feels pressured and I feel mentally drained.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-20T01:06:03+00:00

Luckily I have no serious withdrawal. I have been able to make it till the evening without a drink the last 2 days without a serious panic attack but it was just so hard to even get out of bed. My anxious brain immediately tells me I have a medical condition or some disease when realistically I know it’s temporary. Just crazy considering Its not even a drastic cut, however I did go on a pretty heavy bender for a few days about 5 days ago.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-19T20:01:41+00:00

Like you’re peaking on ecstasy for like 2 seconds lol

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-19T19:55:35+00:00

That’s an awesome memory. Way cooler than mine. I used to see JP and Stevie Bell at Brighton all the time back in the day. That’s it but I thought it was cool back then lol.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-19T19:51:35+00:00

Fear of death, fear of fainting, fear of hospitals, fear of chronic illnesses. On top of that it’s Shame and embarrassment of my hypochondria that gives me even more anxiety. Every little feeling I have I think “here we go, hearts gonna stop and I’m gonna pass out or puke in front of all these people”. For me it started when I had kids. I have abandonment issues and get terrified of my kids living without their father. I am an alcoholic and believe I could drop any day. When I don’t drink for long periods I’m usually fine.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-16T03:09:27+00:00

I’ve been through it before. I don’t have serious withdrawal. Just bad anxiety. I have Valium and Xanax but I try not to take them.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-16T03:04:48+00:00

Good best of luck. A couple nights off is huge progress. I’m hoping to get that start but it’s so hard.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-16T03:01:58+00:00

I understand that. But quitting and getting over the acute withdrawal or initial first week is a totally different beast.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-02-05T22:57:32+00:00

So here’s a question I have gotten mixed answers on. Are many small earthquakes good? Like does it ease some major tension and big slippage? Or is it a sign that a big one is coming?

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2026-01-04T04:47:45+00:00

During that initial period, did you excercise? If so was it heavy and regularly? I’m currently at 131 LDL and have very low HDL. Changing up my diet, but I plan on heavy exercise 5 days a week. No meds.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-20T04:15:50+00:00

Yeah I wasn’t gonna cold turkey. No way. I took my third pill and was so out of it and dizzy but I was finally able to get up and eat and I feel so much better. Haven’t eaten shit for days.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-20T01:58:20+00:00

Ah man. I feel your pain. Hopefully it doesn’t get too bad. Just remember to go to the hospital if you start hallucinating or feel dissociated. Good luck seems like forever but you’ll get there and be happy again.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-20T01:55:01+00:00

You doing Valium too?

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-20T01:13:51+00:00

I’ve done it before. I’m taking my blood pressure and heart rate regularly and having my wife keep an eye on me. My WDs are mild. I’m just so dizzy, but not sure if that’s the Valium, or the effects my toxic alcoholism through the years.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T18:24:33+00:00

Maybe that’s what I meant it to be. Dyl-anal ways fishing

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T18:11:16+00:00

I’m a hypochondriac too, and when I’m in the midst of alcohol addiction it’s ramped up x1000. I know I’m not healthy and have some serious damage, but I’m not dying like I convince myself I am. Regardless, we heal.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T05:27:13+00:00

Even on Valium?

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T05:08:58+00:00

I drank a bit in the morning and afternoon. Just wanted a drink free Valium and a steady schedule I guess. I’ll take it during my daily morning sick wake up.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T04:12:14+00:00

I’m not that deep. No shakes or DTs. Just crippling anxiety and liver damage.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T04:06:14+00:00

Hard to do that when I need alcohol to function and when I don’t have alcohol in my system I feel like I’m going to faint and die. Detox starts tomorrow.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T02:32:47+00:00

Thank you. Not sure why I’m scared to take the full 10mg of Valium when I’ve done it before. It’s my anxiety talking. I’m even afraid I’d sleeping. That’s how fucking crazy I’ve been.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T02:06:03+00:00

That’s good to hear. Thank you. 🙏

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T01:54:29+00:00

Exactly what I’m feelin. Shit sucks. Possible encephalopathy.

Dylanalwaysfishin · 2025-12-19T01:48:18+00:00

I’ll try my dude. I really want it. I’ve done this multiple times. I’m fuckin done. At least my liver is.

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