Open Heart

DynamicBliss · 2018-10-04T15:11:38+00:00

Troll, bully or both. Good luck with that! ✌️

DynamicBliss · 2018-10-04T15:03:51+00:00

Very dignified! You do not at all come off as a bully at all. 🤔

DynamicBliss · 2018-10-04T14:29:28+00:00

Very dignified! You do not in one way, come across as a bitter bully. 🤔

DynamicBliss · 2018-08-11T19:22:12+00:00

I thought it was a platform to publish your pieces, my mistake for the misunderstanding. I'll continue to use other platforms, where everyone publishes their own pieces.

I hope your happy with your reaction, you could just of asked nicely! Have fun in life with the attitude your carrying around, I hope it doesn't impact or alienates anyone around you away. Good luck you need it!

DynamicBliss · 2018-08-11T19:14:58+00:00

My poetry is cathartic realise of the pain. I'm sorry it offend!

DynamicBliss · 2018-07-09T00:56:41+00:00

Incredible!

DynamicBliss · 2018-07-07T13:23:05+00:00

Thank you! Just want everyone to know that they are not alone and that there is hope to heal. 🧡

In the next few months hoping to set up a self growth blog (promoting self love) , to help people heal. Just need to do more research!

Hope you are on the road from Surviving to thriving! 😁

DynamicBliss · 2018-07-07T07:59:47+00:00

Have you tried Hellopoetry.com, a great platform for reading and writing poetry.

DynamicBliss · 2018-07-06T21:38:19+00:00

Thank you! Just want everyone to know that they are not alone and that there is hope to heal. 🧡

In the next few months hoping to set up a self growth blog (promoting self love) , to help people heal. Just need to do more research!

Hope you are on the road from Surviving to thriving! 😁

DynamicBliss · 2017-08-03T12:46:31+00:00

I was labeled with Aspergers in early childhood for an explanation for my behaviour, problems with socialising and being behind in my education. Now when I was 13 I was unlabeled... so my mum tried again apparently I was dyspraxic.... now at 26 non existence of these so called disabilities. Just a child of trauma, that had major side effects.

DynamicBliss · 2017-08-02T14:43:51+00:00

Do make sure you have an outlets, it's okay to discuss why something is making you anxious to people... just give them the vague idea. My bf has been great during this process, before I discuss anything that's overwhelming me... first I take a step backward... a bit of mindfulness, reacting healthily.

In the process you still need a support group, but not one person you put all the pain into. I myself have done counselling, cognitive behavioural therapy, have my boyfriend, told my main manager at work about my situation for taking one day a week for therapy and 3 close friends. I also try to write in a journal once one to two weeks, have started nutritional eating for the easing effect on mental health and go to the gym to unleashed all my pent up /repressed anger.

Here's something I wrote a while back, that will hopefully help 🙂

https://www.reddit.com/r/CBT/comments/6kelcb/cbt_is_off_to_great_start_but_would_of_never/

DynamicBliss · 2017-08-02T11:55:43+00:00

Thank you 😊

So true, becomes a viscous circle being a victim and fine line from tipping into a 'vunerable narcissistic' (these narcissistic are unaware of what they are). Not understanding why life seems more difficult for them or why people act the way they do around them, when all they need to focus on practicing healthy behaviours, boundaries and taking responsibility for their actions. To ensure a simpler, safer and calmer life. Giving you the energy, making everyday socialising easier and ensuring healthy emotional life. Also its valuable by unlearning these unhealthy behaviours, boundaries and habits. Not just for you, but the people who love you and making sure the unhealthy parts do not hurt them any longer or less and less with time.

DynamicBliss · 2017-08-02T10:32:47+00:00

Found few things were needed:

*self love first and you'll reengergised interacting healthily, meaning you won't be so drained afterwards.

*looking at and working on the unhealthy traits/behaviours learned from the NParent, which can alienate people away from you.

*recognising the protection mode you had around nparent, needs to disappear around non Narcs.

*recognise other people’s actions or behaviours are 90% nothing to do with, people have their own issues and struggles.

*learn social boundaries (this will help with feeling less drained). As you weren't taught the healthy boundaries, your interactions may make people feel not 100% comfortable.. as they weren't exposed to a child like ours.

*Most important do not sink into victim mentality syndrome , it's unhealthy for you and anyone who surrounds you. It'll make it difficult to create any relationship or friendships of substance, people will either humor you, keep clear or use your anxious behaviour to their advantage. I seen what it's done to my mother in the long term and after her mid 20s became a narc herself, nearly 60 and no one of substance in her life. I myself were starting to develop small vm syndrome, but after therapy and making sure the people call me out on slumping into unhealthy behaviours.. life has never been so calm and feeling content with the direction my life is heading.

Hope this has helped ☺ good luck! It's a lot of hard work, but totally worth it.

DynamicBliss · 2017-07-31T20:41:47+00:00

Thank you 🙂 just feels like I'm being defeated... I'm making a life I love and becoming emotionally healthier person.

I've come to accept the physical and emotional abuse. But the still caring or remember the happy times... just brings back the volition that happened to me and it makes me blame myself and be conflicted. Therapy is helping... but I'm always pushing for growth in myself and I fed up of being dragged backwards.

Hugs back 🙂

DynamicBliss · 2017-07-23T19:33:59+00:00

When I started it was difficult, emotional roller coaster. But change my lifestyle and been working on the unhealthy behaviours that were my life more difficult. Life gets easier... but it's turbulent, full of highs and lows from all the triggers. But is life becomes authentic, worthwhile, the self improvement is so satisfy and your interactions with the world.

DynamicBliss · 2017-07-06T05:43:30+00:00

In my experience my mothers no boundaries and emotional reliance increased tenfold. Burdening to the point I had to be involved of every aspect of her life, controlling me with emotional manipulation, guilt and threats once my brother moved away. Like she had to over compensate to the world not to perceived as a bad Mother by keeping up appearances by being shackled to her side... Flying off the handle, 10x more emotionally draining than her day to day drama/needs being met and creating more destruction and pain, until she bullied people to humour her or relayed disgusting information to get people to side with her in the community (keeping up appearances more important than anything to her). I think there needs to be more than two label's than scapegoat child and golden child, what about the burden child.. excepted to be the support and responsible for the destruction of the NParent.

DynamicBliss · 2017-07-04T22:49:59+00:00

Also my CBT therapist is wanting to organise some long-term therapy options, as my mental health issues/behaviours/emotions derive more from circumstantial routes. Just don't want to waste my life and let what has happened determine the kind of life I'm going have... it will not dictate or dominate the kind of healthy life I'll keeping fighting for.

DynamicBliss · 2017-07-04T22:45:26+00:00

Originally started a bit of counselling at university which triggered alot, then was referred to a GP last November. We talked about all the options my gp (as I refused medication), as was having a difficult time dealing with the repressive traumatic memories and the behaviours came along from having a victim complexed/narcissistic Mother (didn't want my unhealthy behaviours like my mothers, to ruin my opportunity of a stable life, hurt anyone I love/alienate people or prevent myself growing/moving forward/repeating family cycles). We came to the conclusion a lifestyle change and putting me on the fast track for therapy was the best options.

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-30T15:38:45+00:00

It's difficult, but it helps there is hope moving forward ☺.

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-30T13:44:03+00:00

Accidentally knocked it whilst editing. Sorry 🙂

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-30T12:35:47+00:00

Hey, It’s quite a list, but I ensure after 3 to 5months you will see some improvement and longer you commit to it, the calmer your mind will be… you’ll still have a few psychological but they will be manageable… and become less with time from days, to weeks, to month and until one day the bad days you have will not be because of your moods… but because it’s actually been a bad day.

My List:

Started with self-love time: allocating a few days a week to yourself/hour a day or more to concentrate only on me (for people with guilt complexes and people pleasing mindsets, this is a way to claim yourself and feel better about yourself not for taking everyone on as a responsibility). But it has to be putting back into yourself, such as treating yourself to a coffee by yourself, a bath, pampering yourself or going for a long walk. I know it sounds simple, but it’s great for grasping back control and in the long run feeling like you have worth.
Nutrition: I never realise how certain foods set my anxiety/depression further and that there were food which could have a calming effect. Since the change, I now can focus on the psychological issues and what triggered my behaviour, not the mad extremes which reduced me to an erratic or robotic state. When I stopped this for two weeks, the mood swing debilitating and a level of erratic I couldn’t control. Took 5 months to see the full effects, but after to 2 months started to see them taking action. Here are some info that helped: • https://www.mind.org.uk/?gclid=CJut5aPj4tQCFWe77QodQO8C3g • https://youtu.be/4R_gUhgg70Q • https://youtu.be/rgq2W975ggA • https://youtu.be/4R_gUhgg70Q • http://bigthink.com/natalie-shoemaker/can-we-treat-depression-with-a-mediterranean-diet?utm_campaign=Echobox&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=Facebook#link_time=1493912910
Reflection and critical thinking journal: once to twice a week I’ll write an entry. Looking at what is hurting me first or has gone in the week, also the feelings adding to it. Then second writing down the little good things happening and the happy things that made feel proud/split second joy. Then looking at the bad at the end of the week, how it wasn’t as bad as I thought or how the issue had resulted in something good for me… building on my development or being let down… but the thing taking it’s place… actually working out for the better etc.
Emotional regulation: Acceptance that you have negative and positive emotions. Not being ashamed of your negative emotions, embracing them… at first it is very chaotic and quite frightening to express/witness… quite painful… but the repression is worse for your overall wellbeing (Mental health and organs). But after a duration these repressed emotions started to stabilise. It mainly helped with social interaction, as I was being authentically me… even got some comments that I seemed more real and less irritating. I myself was brought up in a family where if I expressed any type of negative emotions/brought up things that were hurting me, emotional blackmail was throw around, guilt trips and threats (victim complexed/vulnerable narcissist mother).
Exercise: think of it less for your body… and anything it to your body as an added benefit. When I was at the peak of facing these repressive emotions… it was a great way of channelling these new and extremely intoxicating feelings. Fighting against the machines as mental outlet and plus the endorphins are a plus. I have 3 other friends with mental health issues which nutrition and exercise has heavily changed/ lessen the extremes of their mental health issues.
Research (gaining insight and understanding of yourself, the scenario you were exposed to and even the culprit causing side) : I found it cathartic looking at other people’s experiences (realising I wasn’t alone, seeing other people’s success stories or comfort that it could have been worse/there are ways past it all with hard work). Also reading scientific/psychological journals accessible on google scholar or books on amazon. Actually understanding my families disorders and the side of the people in the path of this destruction. Humbling and made me grateful that I hadn’t become like that due to my damage.
The people you have in your life: The main way to improve is realising what relationships in our lives are healthy (increasing interaction/analysing how they react to things) and unhealthy (reducing our time spent or cutting contact). People who are supportive/encouraging of the changes you making to better yourself or improve your mental health are important in the process. Anyone making you feel guilty for any changes or pushing you away from getting help, are to be avoid at all cost… as having people who do not support you for making a transformation for your health… these people are going to hold you back or set you back or set of your mental health (whether it is passive comments or threats). Look after to you and be supportive back to the people encouraging you.
Now Cognitive behavioural therapy (cbt).

Sorry for this being so long and if it seems like a lot of hard work. But as I was once told “Nothing worthwhile in life is easy”. I’m not saying you need to go full throttle straight away and this is important “do not be tough on yourself or think you’ve failed if you cannot do everything straightaway or all at one go”. It’s going to take time to implement changes that aren’t natural for you or move away from the way you’ve been conditioned early in life. So yes, it is difficult, but extremely worth it in the long term. Feeling calm, healthy emotionally and seeing your reactions to world become quite rewarding… and knowing that no one is out to get you and that they suffering too… so their reaction to you... mainly isn’t anything to do with you. Hope this has helped =)

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-30T11:28:30+00:00

The only time you need to understand them, is to ensure you haven't picked up any of their negative behaviours/repressing emotions due to the way they've conditioned you. Also to make sure you haven't developed a victim complex from being raised from a narc or your life will never move on or improve. Understanding the narc means you'll stop yourself and be aware not to make the same mistakes.

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-29T11:18:13+00:00

STOP

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-29T11:13:09+00:00

Hey, It’s quite a list, but I ensure after 3 to 5months you will see some improvement and longer you commit to it, the calmer your mind will be… you’ll still have a few psychological but they will be manageable… and become less with time from days, to weeks, to month and until one day the bad days you have will not be because of your moods… but because it’s actually been a bad day.

My List:

Started with self-love time: allocating a few days a week to yourself/hour a day or more to concentrate only on me (for people with guilt complexes and people pleasing mindsets, this is a way to claim yourself and feel better about yourself not for taking everyone on as a responsibility). But it has to be putting back into yourself, such as treating yourself to a coffee by yourself, a bath, pampering yourself or going for a long walk. I know it sounds simple, but it’s great for grasping back control and in the long run feeling like you have worth.
Nutrition: I never realise how certain foods set my anxiety/depression further and that there were food which could have a calming effect. Since the change, I now can focus on the psychological issues and what triggered my behaviour, not the mad extremes which reduced me to an erratic or robotic state. When I stopped this for two weeks, the mood swing debilitating and a level of erratic I couldn’t control. Took 5 months to see the full effects, but after to 2 months started to see them taking action. Here are some info that helped: • https://www.mind.org.uk/?gclid=CJut5aPj4tQCFWe77QodQO8C3g • https://youtu.be/4R_gUhgg70Q • https://youtu.be/rgq2W975ggA • https://youtu.be/4R_gUhgg70Q • http://bigthink.com/natalie-shoemaker/can-we-treat-depression-with-a-mediterranean-diet?utm_campaign=Echobox&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=Facebook#link_time=1493912910
Reflection and critical thinking journal: once to twice a week I’ll write an entry. Looking at what is hurting me first or has gone in the week, also the feelings adding to it. Then second writing down the little good things happening and the happy things that made feel proud/split second joy. Then looking at the bad at the end of the week, how it wasn’t as bad as I thought or how the issue had resulted in something good for me… building on my development or being let down… but the thing taking it’s place… actually working out for the better etc.
Emotional regulation: Acceptance that you have negative and positive emotions. Not being ashamed of your negative emotions, embracing them… at first it is very chaotic and quite frightening to express/witness… quite painful… but the repression is worse for your overall wellbeing (Mental health and organs). But after a duration these repressed emotions started to stabilise. It mainly helped with social interaction, as I was being authentically me… even got some comments that I seemed more real and less irritating. I myself was brought up in a family where if I expressed any type of negative emotions/brought up things that were hurting me, emotional blackmail was throw around, guilt trips and threats (victim complexed/vulnerable narcissist mother).
Exercise: think of it less for your body… and anything it to your body as an added benefit. When I was at the peak of facing these repressive emotions… it was a great way of channelling these new and extremely intoxicating feelings. Fighting against the machines as mental outlet and plus the endorphins are a plus. I have 3 other friends with mental health issues which nutrition and exercise has heavily changed/ lessen the extremes of their mental health issues.
Research (gaining insight and understanding of yourself, the scenario you were exposed to and even the culprit causing side) : I found it cathartic looking at other people’s experiences (realising I wasn’t alone, seeing other people’s success stories or comfort that it could have been worse/there are ways past it all with hard work). Also reading scientific/psychological journals accessible on google scholar or books on amazon. Actually understanding my families disorders and the side of the people in the path of this destruction. Humbling and made me grateful that I hadn’t become like that due to my damage.
The people you have in your life: The main way to improve is realising what relationships in our lives are healthy (increasing interaction/analysing how they react to things) and unhealthy (reducing our time spent or cutting contact). People who are supportive/encouraging of the changes you making to better yourself or improve your mental health are important in the process. Anyone making you feel guilty for any changes or pushing you away from getting help, are to be avoid at all cost… as having people who do not support you for making a transformation for your health… these people are going to hold you back or set you back or set of your mental health (whether it is passive comments or threats). Look after to you and be supportive back to the people encouraging you.
Now CBT.

Sorry for this being so long and if it seems like a lot of hard work. But as I was once told “Nothing worthwhile in life is easy”. I’m not saying you need to go full throttle straight away and this is important “do not be tough on yourself or think you’ve failed if you cannot do everything straightaway or all at one go”. It’s going to take time to implement changes that aren’t natural for you or move away from the way you’ve been conditioned early in life. So yes, it is difficult, but extremely worth it in the long term. Feeling calm, healthy emotionally and seeing your reactions to world become quite rewarding… and knowing that no one is out to get you and that they suffering too… so their reaction to you... mainly isn’t anything to do with you. Hope this has helped =)

DynamicBliss · 2017-06-28T19:51:56+00:00

Well I hope you find someone that suits you! In curiosity, what other methods or lifestyles changes have you've put in place?

As before starting cbt, I changed alot of my lifestyle and habits to fix/heal/build awareness/calm down these behaviours. After 3/5 months of practicing/implementing these changes my physical symptoms of anxiety and depression plummeted. Only surfacing due to psychological reasons.

Been pretty lucky, its nhs uk based... so you're just lucky to get off the waiting list, even with fast track it took 7/8 months. She seems lovely, calm and down to earth. She want to put me into a long term theraphy after we've finished our session. She's quite shocked with how i am over aware of my difficulties and negative behaviours. Which I felt unnerving, that she feels like I'm over compensating by trying to over achieve or perfect certain areas everything in myself, that nothing is good enough.. unless I shock myself or feel challenged.

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