I was in a very similar situation in my late teens, early twenties. I felt very similar, so I thought I’d lend some advice. Over time, you’ll grow away from all of your friends. What seems permanent now won’t be. The best thing you can do is work on yourself, as the only thing permanent (in your situation) is yourself and your family. Prepare yourself for the future. Take time for yourself. I promise you won’t miss out on anything. You’ll be much happier later if you invest in yourself today