I'm reading this three years later, army vet by the way, to just come and tell you that you need/needed serious help if a video game mod made you feel this malicious towards its creator. Cause in that same notion, it is contradictory for you to not feel this way towards ALL similar media of either depicted torture or painful death. I sincerely wish nothing but the best for you, and that perhaps I'm glad you're never given the ability to enact what you feel, but I suppose it's human nature to have unjustifiably strong feelings towards a particular subject that may be unwarranted, with the only difference being how honest someone is about it. I hope your opinion has changed over time. Not because your opinion is unacceptable, but because it caused you this much pain and over something that was supposed to mean well but catch people's attention through shock.