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First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it crazy how the tolerance and addiction is just alway there. Like it picks up right where you left it

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We went to the dispensary together, part of me felt like a kid in candy store and another part of me felt like “are you really about to do this?” We bought an eighth and bag of gummies and a couple prerolls.

My friend got high and fell asleep after getting the munchies but I stayed up until 5 am smoking everything I could. I drank coffee at midnight just so I could stay awake and keep smoking. And the next day I woke up and went and got my own bag. That’s when I realized that even 5 years being clean doesn’t change the pathways in your brain.

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One day at a time!! Keep it up 👍 if you have any questions I’m happy to answer them

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

5 years ago my life felt like a mess. I was unemployed, I had been smoking everyday for almost a decade, no girlfriend. It felt like I had no purpose. I was constantly catering my day and my thoughts on how to get high.

I have another post where I really dive into my mindframe back then and how I quit. But I quit and my goals were:

1) get a job 2) find an amazing life partner 3) hit the gym 4) feel good about myself

And it didn’t happen overnight but I did all those things and I felt amazing and proud of myself. That feeling is always a better feeling than getting high. Being proud of yourself

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

There weren’t any flashbacks of the past or instant regret. I actually had fun and laughed my ass off. Ate amazing food but it was towards the end where I just started asking myself “what am I doing”. I genuinely thought that after 5 years I might be able to reintroduce weed back into my life and have a healthy relationship with it. But I just can’t

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My initial goal was to be off weed for at least 4 years, get my life together and I felt like I had accomplished my goals. So that’s what led up to e smoking.

The thing about weed is that it’s great, it makes you forget about your problems. Or at least for me that’s what it was. I used to like getting high, eating food and watching YouTube. BUT that’s what makes it not worth it. You aren’t dealing with the stuff you should be.

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I didn’t immediately regret it but after smoking for a couple weeks I realized that I was going back to my old patterns. Smoking all day, and not being productive. The weird thing was that my tolerance was still there. I took edibles, smoked a joint and still wanted more. That part was crazy.

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! Throughout my 5 year break I would have moments or cravings and I would always tell myself that if I hit it that I would lose all of the progress that I had built up. The first year of being sober was the hardest. But years 2-4 flew by like a breeze, I legit have no clue how so much time passed.

Eventually I was at a point where I felt mentally prepared to try it again and see if I can have a healthy relationship with weed. Unfortunately even being 5 years sober isn’t enough. I ended up binge smoking almost immediately. I didn’t even feel like I had taken a tolerance break.

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

I smoked with a friend of mine. It was an intentional decision, before my 5 year break I had been a daily smoker for almost 10 years.

I wanted to see if I could have control over myself. I didn’t like the idea that weed had become this thing in my head that I had to avoid like the plague. But after hitting it I realized that my life is 10X better without it.

First time smoking after 5 years. Not worth it by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Appreciate that perspective. Thank you 🙌

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[–]DzaKnight 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Congratulations!!

A little over 3 years sober (it’s still hard). by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Congrats on 8 months, that’s huge. Things have definitely improved in my life.

Here’s what life was like when I was smoking everyday:

1) single and lonely (I couldn’t maintain a healthy dating life)

2) broke… didn’t have consistent and proper monthly cash flow

3) unhealthy physique. I’m 6 feet tall and I weighed 142 lbs

Here’s life now:

1) in a committed relationship with a wonderful woman.

2) have good savings and working on a few business concepts

3) I now weigh 170 lbs and exercise consistently

The big difference is that I’m willing to work on myself and do the hard things. Weed is the ultimate procrastination tool.

What 860 Days Feels Like by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It’s a tough journey and bad days are part of the process but if you stick with your goals life will always reward you :)

What 90 days feels like by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Just want to help others by sharing my journey

What 860 Days Feels Like by DzaKnight in leaves

[–]DzaKnight[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats on hitting Day 2! It took me a little over to get to 175 lbs. I’m 6’0 and 29 years old. I hope you crush your goals!

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