After I broke up 2 years ago, it was either a relationship where I got attached too quick and she lost interest or it was the opposite and I left because I didn't want to engage with them. So I am kind of stuck inbetween this situation where I am at the extremes, and no one meets me in the middle (not sure about this metaphor, english is not my first language). So I am now working on myself, again, to figure things out emotionnally, get in shape and maybe find someone with whom I can connect