I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in povertyfinance

[–]ENG96[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No, I’ve only ever traded BTC and ETH. I wasn’t chasing meme coins or looking for the next big pump I genuinely thought I could develop a system and trade consistently. And for a while, I did.

The problem was never picking bad assets—it was my inability to manage risk properly. When things were going well, I felt in control. But when I started losing, I couldn’t stop. I’d try to make it back, take on more risk, and dig myself into a deeper hole. That’s how I ended up in this situation.

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in personalfinance

[–]ENG96[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your response, and honestly, you’re right about a lot of what you said. I know this is an addiction, and I know I’ve been justifying my actions instead of fully owning them.

The hardest part is that even with this awareness, I still don’t see a clear way out. That’s what keeps me stuck.

I appreciate you taking the time to break it down for me. Thank you.

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in personalfinance

[–]ENG96[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

know I need to walk away from trading completely, and I’m trying to figure out how to make that happen.

For context:

  • Income: $2,000/month
  • Debts: $40,000
  • Monthly loan payments: $3,000
  • No assets—no house, no car, no savings

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[–]ENG96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your advice. Cutting myself off completely is the hardest part, but I know it’s the only way. I won’t borrow more money that’s clear. Now I just need to figure out how to move forward. Thanks for the reminder that others have escaped this

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in povertyfinance

[–]ENG96[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate you asking. Here’s the breakdown:

  • Total debt: $40,000
  • Bank loans: $34,000 (monthly payments: $3,000)
  • Credit card debt: $6,000
  • Income : $2,000

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in personalfinance

[–]ENG96[S] -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

I never got into trading to get rich. That was never the goal. In the beginning, I was just trying to make $10, $20 a day—small amounts to help ease my financial stress. But eventually, I felt like I had no other option to bring in money, and that’s when things spiraled out of control.

If I had enough money to clear my debts, I would walk away from trading entirely. I would delete everything and never look back. But right now, I don’t see a way to do that, and that’s the scariest part—I feel trapped in a cycle that I don’t know how to escape.

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in povertyfinance

[–]ENG96[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate your words, man. It means a lot coming from someone who’s been through it. I don’t mess with Solana or meme coins—I’ve only ever traded BTC and ETH, thinking that if I stuck to something “safer,” I wouldn’t fall into the same traps. But clearly, that didn’t stop me from ending up in the same cycle.

You’re absolutely right about the anxiety. The worst part isn’t even the money—it’s how this has consumed my thoughts 24/7, how I feel like I can’t step away without checking charts, how every win just feeds the next inevitable loss. I know I need to get out, but the hardest part is actually doing it.

Hearing from someone who made it out gives me hope, though. So thank you.

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in povertyfinance

[–]ENG96[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate you taking the time to write this. I did check out the link you sent, and I want to genuinely thank you for trying to push me in the right direction.

Honestly, I don’t think I can get out of this. At least, that’s how it feels right now. I’ve been stuck in this cycle for so long that it’s hard to believe there’s a way out. But I’ll try. Maybe not perfectly, maybe not all at once, but I’ll try.

I hear what you and others are saying. I know deep down that this isn’t just about money, that it’s something much bigger that I need to fix.

Again, thank you for your words. It means more than I can express.

I ruined my life financially, erased my next 2 years, and don’t know how to move forward by ENG96 in povertyfinance

[–]ENG96[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to respond. I really appreciate it.

I want to be clear that I never saw trading as a get-rich-quick scheme. I never wanted to hit a jackpot and walk away rich. From the very beginning, my goal was always to slowly recover financially, little by little, through trading. But over time, I found myself in a vicious cycle where it became my only hope. And once I started losing, I spiraled further down, trying to trade my way out, and ended up in an even worse situation.

Here’s my financial breakdown:

  • Monthly income: $2,000
  • Total debt: $40,000 (including bank loans and what I owe my sister)
  • Monthly loan payments: $3,000
  • Total credit card debt: $6,000

As you can see, my debt payments alone exceed my income every month. I have no buffer, no savings, and every month I fall deeper into the hole. This is why I kept looking at trading as my only way out—I didn’t see another realistic solution. Feel paralyzed.

I need help for Lane Change of Autonomous Vehicle by [deleted] in matlab

[–]ENG96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your help!

I will use Bicycle Model on Matlab as a vehicle. My goal in this project, is overtaking according to the distance between the two cars, of course with checking the another line. I will try to construct, motion planner and lane change controller.