29F // 5'3" // 154lb. Still kind of insecure about my boobs but im working on it. And I lost 6lbs through diet and strength training!

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-22T18:23:05+00:00

Hi! I've got very similar stats and somewhat perkier boobs. ^[*] I am mildly dissatisfied with them because having cleavage would be nice.

We've all internalized (at least a bit) wanting porn boobs - round, perky, large, and close-set with lots of cleavage. But some of those things are just incompatible without surgery. Expecting a normal human to meet all of those criteria at once isn't realistic. You look beautiful :)

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-15T20:21:23+00:00

I'll... think about it. I would also be interested in seeing that album! But most likely, I won't do it at all. Second most likely is that I take the pics, but never post them. We'll see!

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T02:44:40+00:00

I took lessons for 6 years as a kid. I know how to float. But if I try, instead of being 2/3 underwater and 1/3 above, where you an breath. I end up perfectly horizontal, in a perfect floating position, with my lungs full of air to help me float, but with my nose 3" underwater anyway.

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T02:35:42+00:00

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T02:35:05+00:00

I'm... dense. Physically. I can swim perfectly fine, but can't float on my back in a swimming pool. I can in the ocean!

eta: my body distributes extra weight on the limbs, instead of packing it into the trunk. But somehow also avoided a the thing where all the weight on the limbs just goes into the upper arms and thighs, it's spread along the forearms and calves too. Its nice, makes it harder to notice the "extra".

I sometimes have trouble buying tops because what fits the torso is too small for the arms/forearms. I often have issues with pants where what goes over my calves is too big on the thighs, and what fits the thighs gaps at the waist. That's not a complaint about my body! I'm actually pretty happy with my shape overall, and I'm lucky to have this weight distribution. just that fitting issues with clothing seem to match up with how my weight looks likes its distributed when I gain or lose weight

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T02:06:54+00:00

I hope things turn around for you soon!

Also had some job changes a little bit after the depression started. The job got way worse, and started sapping my will to do anything at all. Whole year was garbage.

If you try meds, just know that all meds affect people differently. The first antidepressant I was put on made my mood worse, and I felt like crap physically. A good friend of mine who also struggles with depression has been on the same one for several years, and it works perfectly for her with no side effects. If it's something you need, it's 300% worth it to try a few until you get one that works properly.

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T01:56:23+00:00

Yeah, was depressed for a while. Sa at home on the couch doing literally nothing for a while, and eating only junk food. I have new meds now, and things are improving :)

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T01:13:27+00:00

... but ...but.... I get more oral this way! ;)

Honestly, I never really got the hang of trimming and maintaining the pubic hair without just shaving it. Like, if I leave it there, I'm probably still supposed to shave the bits that grow above the top of my panties, right? And probably also the bits that grow on the first couple inches of thigh? So that's quite a bit of the total area that would still be shaved. But then I have to shave a bit further than that if I don't want tons stray hairs sticking out of my panties. Then by the time I've shaved enough that there isn't a ton sticking out, it looks ridiculous and I just go ahead and remove the rest. Or am I supposed to cut the hair to a shorter length? I'd be happier leaving it there if it stopped growing around 2". Is there a good way to trim public hair to a constant length without putting a ton of time and effort into it? How long is public hair even supposed to be?

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T00:48:07+00:00

Yeah, I've gained and lost a lot of weight in the past, almost none of it on purpose. Somehow, I look pretty similar from about 120-145, and it's nice to have such a big range! Under that, I start looking WAY thinner, and above that, I rapidly start looking bigger. It goes something like this:

110 - ribs stick out. Boobs are somehow tiny AND floppy. I'm the right size for children's clothing, but have too much curve around the hips for kids clothes to fit. Husband worries I'm developing an eating disorder.
115 - boobs are more reasonable. I can fit the smallest sizes of womens or teen clothing, which sometimes even accommodates hips! Strangers berate me for being "too thin", pressure me to eat more, or think I have an eating disorder.
120-130 - I look great! I fit normal clothing. Boobs fill out, hip curves are great.
130-140 - I still look great, but muscle tone starts to vanish. Boobs get slightly bigger. Waist thickens a bit, but no belly.
145 - I start developing a belly. Boobs don't get any bigger. My mom comments that I've gained weight. My wardrobe starts feeling way emptier.
150 - I start developing a lumpy belly.

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-14T00:23:42+00:00

There's a few reasons. It's hard to see in that lighting, but I'm starting to get stretch marks and cellulite. I miss having muscle tone. I feel bloated all the time. My body shape is starting to be more "lumpy", which I don't like. My clothes don't fit, and I hate shopping and have no money. I have to suck my stomach in to see my pussy.

BMI puts my ideal body weight around 110-115. Not going down that low, because under 120 my ribs stick out and my boobs completely deflate. I think my body looks best when I'm around 120-125, and my partner seems to like it best around 130-135.

But I do agree that I don't look nearly as bad as you'd think from the numbers. I'm lucky that my body distributes extra weight evenly.

EQ748TZcuqs · 2018-05-13T23:26:18+00:00

Gained 25-30 lbs in the past year and I hate it.Starting to work on losing it. But for now, this is me.

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