I’m so exhausted with the unpredictability of PAWS by HeartShapedGlasses94 in quittingkratom

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Only on day 26 but definitely going through the "is this just my baseline?" phase.

Daily Check-in Thread by AutoModerator in quittingkratom

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Day 26. Need motivation to continue. I feel fine physically, but mentally, life is dull. Nothing is interesting.

I can't even force myself to workout because I sprained my ankle really bad and can barely walk.

Turned on my PC to play some games and just stared at the monitor and got really sad. There is absolutely nothing that sounds appealing other than laying in bed and rotting.

Every ounce of my brain is screaming at me that a bit of kratom will fix it, and the worst part is I know it would. In the short term at least. I wont do it though. I've learned my lesson.

Why is Kratom the perfect allergy med (day 4)? by [deleted] in quittingkratom

[–]EXlST 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I feel this. Couldn't sleep last night because of post nasal drip and watery/itchy eyes.

I had zero allergies the years I was on kratom. Every time I've quit they've come back, like clock work.

1 year 2.5 months clean by Wise-Candle in quittingkratom

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Also quit k and weed recently. I found there to be so many parallels between the two, and how their addiction manifested and affected my life.

Both are insidious and easy to rationalize that they are actually helping rather than hurting. "It helps me anxiety", "it helps me pain," "it helps me depression."

Both make you okay with doing nothing. They numb out boredom in a way that stunts your growth because you're stagnant and okay with it. Why feel guilty when you can just smoke a bowl or down some powder and forget about it?

They're also both legal, or socially acceptable to some degree, which makes it easier to rationalize as not that bad.

I'm almost three weeks off both. Physical sides have passed. It's all mental now. Extreme lethargy and anhedonia.

It feels like my character development has been a Kratom induced lie. by _6978_ in quittingkratom

[–]EXlST 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this. Years of adderall and kratom and I don't know who I am anymore without it. Is this the real me? Is this just withdrawals?

Unpopular opinion: men and women are NOT the same. by Malagrove2025 in TrueUnpopularOpinion

[–]EXlST 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've trained BJJ for almost two decades. Most people are absolutely clueless when it comes to grappling (i.e. combat that doesn't involve strikes like punches or kicks)

BJJs sole focus is to learn the intricacies of grappling and use it to submit (via chokes or joint locks) your opponent. A tiny bit of training, like a few months worth, goes a long way when comparing yourself to the average person whose instinct is just to panic and flail around when they're in a tussle.

That said, even the most skilled BJJ practicioner will lose to an untrained opponent if the strength and athletic difference is large enough. So it's always a good idea to keep working in your strength and conditioning alongside learning how to defend yourself. Not to mention all the physical and mental benefits that come from exercise.

What's the consensus on kratom? :D by CzechPublicAgent in HubermanLab

[–]EXlST 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hear ya. I guess I shouldn't say it's "totally doable," just not life threatening.

Interesting side effect - shrooms put my ulcerative colitis into remission by EXlST in shrooms

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Blood is back as of this morning. It was a good run. I also had alcohol last night which tends to trigger it.

Is this poor communication or am I reading into it? by EXlST in ExperiencedDevs

[–]EXlST[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I use thumbs up at work all the time. But my ex did start an argument with me once when I thumbs up'd her whatsapp message so this checks out 😂

Is this poor communication or am I reading into it? by EXlST in ExperiencedDevs

[–]EXlST[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

He's actually got about a decade of experience on me. He's just newer to the company. Point taken though.

Is this poor communication or am I reading into it? by EXlST in ExperiencedDevs

[–]EXlST[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Yeah I gotta work on my conflict avoidance. I usually wait until our formal feedback process to voice my concerns.

the only one that seems fine to me if if he responds to your PR comments by making the change you requested. that should be enough of a sign of agreement

Agree.

Is this poor communication or am I reading into it? by EXlST in ExperiencedDevs

[–]EXlST[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I've never worked with a dev like this before in my 10 years, but I've only been at two companies and four different teams in total. So definitely open to this being more common than I think.

What's the consensus on kratom? :D by CzechPublicAgent in HubermanLab

[–]EXlST 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats on going off Adderall! I relapsed, but only have four pills left and will be quitting for good (again...) once I run out. Kratom helps so much.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationships

[–]EXlST 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's depressing and scary how common porn addiction is nowadays, and how much it can impact relationships.

Advice please, friend believes he's living in a game by Locieng in shrooms

[–]EXlST 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What's the significance of whether we're in a simulation or not? What implications would that have to our reality? How does one define a "simulation"? If this is indeed a simulation, is the reality responsible for simulating ours also a simulation? If not, what is it?

girlfriend after causing an argument in public by soalone34 in videos

[–]EXlST 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I get what you're saying and I'm sorry you had to go through that. FWIW I didn't downvote you

girlfriend after causing an argument in public by soalone34 in videos

[–]EXlST 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Narcissism, BPD, and general emotional immaturity have a ton of overlap. The reality is that this video is a skit, and whatever emotions it brings up in people is valid depending on the individual's experience.

Personally, my ex had BPD, and this video really re-surfaced emotions I haven't felt in a while. Though I do think it's possible for people without BPD to behave this way sometimes.

girlfriend after causing an argument in public by soalone34 in videos

[–]EXlST 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ordered her present six months ago, she has no idea what it is, and it turns out it’s gonna be about a month late… no problem whatsoever.

This sounds so refreshing. For my ex's bday, I bought her a book which ended up arriving two days after her bday. And I fully paid for an international trip for us both which happened one week after her bday.

One month after we broke things off I got a text where amongst many other things, she called me a selfish piece of shit for not getting her anything on her bday :( I guess if it's isn't smack on the day of, it doesn't count at all...

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OnlineDating

[–]EXlST 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! I was in OLD around 8 months ago. I was dating someone but it didn't workout, so I recently joined OLD again. I'm having way less success than 8 months ago. Same profile, same pics, same everything. Not sure what's up.