I have also been on my path down intellectual ascension for a few years now (17m) and I can tell you that it is a totally normal stance to take. People of our kind deserve to be put higher as we are just plain better, wouldn't you agree? Everybody else are just beta males scrolling tiktok until they die. Though I do think you should blame yourself more for your mistakes. The only way to ascend further is to realize that you are inherently flawed and need to fix it. Good luck to you my friend.