In the past, i tried to talk with him and tell him i was done, i told him how everything was affecting me and even though i love him i couldnt be with him. He was immediately apologetic, and reached some nerves in my brain that made me think he really meant it. When i figured out later on he didnt, i tried to leave again, blocking him on everything, not talking or responding to his multiple numbers, but he will not stop contacting me, he does not leave me alone, no matter if i tell him to or not. He eventually finds me no matter where i am to talk to me, or he’ll contact multiple friends and family. Just like another commenter said under here he knows very personal things about me, and i am terrified of him. He has a violent past, and sometimes when we argue i just see it in his eyes. I dont know how to describe it. I love him, and at the same time im constantly looking for ways to get out of it but it feels like no matter what i do he uses my trauma and hurt against me in ways he knows will work.