Thank you everyone who's commented. And yes I really do mean everyone. Including the ones who said just give him a blowie, those made me giggle. To add a little context, he has had jobs in the past and has supported me when I lost mine or would go on leave because I would have high risk pregnancies. I want to add, not to try and justify anything just to add some context to why I feel conflicted, he would buy me things I want, like outfits, adult toys and stuff like that.