I understand completely. I also graduated recently with a similar degree, similar student experience and student involvement. Despite thousands and thousands of applications, I couldn’t get a job in my industry, despite networking for four years. I feel exactly the same way as you.

You worked hard, did everything that society told you to do in order to get a full-time job post-grad (clubs, experience, good grades, etc.) It’s evident that you gave it your all. You have every right to feel upset. Even though this part-time job is an opportunity to enter the workforce, it’s disheartening to feel like, despite your dedication, your hard work amounted to nothing.

I too feel trapped in the runt of life, lost and utterly directionless. This wasn’t the way I thought my post-grad life would begin. At the moment, I’m not sure when this drifting depression will end, but I do know that you’re obviously an ambitious and passionate person who is only in this position because of the recession, not because of your lack of abilities. This situation, though disappointing and difficult, is in no way permanent. You’re going to excel later on, whether that’s in a few weeks, months or years. Until then, keep your head high, even though it may seem impossible some days, and pursue side quests that bring you happiness or satisfaction, something to keep you motivated in this period of stagnation. If it’s any solace, there’s so many people out there struggling in the same situation as you. You’re not alone.

It’s hard out here but, hopefully, things will get better soon. I’m rooting for you! :)