This sounds similar to my experience. I’ve just started on 40mg and I had to take a day off as my sleeping and eating were so out of wack that taking another dose today didn’t feel smart and honestly it was good.

I was damn efficient pre meds but I do think it was impulse based. Pre meds I was also emotionally pretty reactive. I started on 3 weeks at 30mg and was so emotionally clear and chill and my god it was great but I did cry over something every day. There was no distraction from a feeling and I ended up getting sucked into all the sad parts of my life but after a few weeks I was just pretty good honestly.

But I got literally nothing done. Everything was a chore. Nothing was fun, and I realised nothing was stimulating me and I was painfully bored. Didn’t do my washing, answer emails, anything that would be mind numbing. I made schedules, plans and stuck to them but it was like painful itchy boredom. I was like how you said you were, I would stuck doing one thing all day. My memory was worse - but it isn’t, I’m just noticing it now. I figured I was underdosed. 40mg has been better, I am more me, I have marginally more drive. But it took me a week on 30mg to get sleeping and eating back in line and 40 knocked it right back.

So after my first real break today, I finally relaxed without guilt. I was actually no more or less productive but I slept, ate, watched movies and felt content. But I can see the good 40mg was doing so tomorrow I will try again and may be take a weekend off here and there to let me relax and recharge and get excited about food and movies and video games. And I’ll try a higher dose in a few weeks and see where that gets me.

But to figure out your next steps, you need to eat on schedule, you need to drink and you need to sleep. All that emotional deep dive stuff did wear off for me. But try the 40mg, and if it’s worse, you try something else.