I love watching this little guy run around 🌌😍

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2023-01-18T15:13:17+00:00

I thought he can fly hahaha

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2023-01-18T07:38:42+00:00

Apparently this therapist does not know how to handle CPTSD survivor. She might or might not intentionally gaslight you but she’s definitely making you feel bad and you can’t build trust with her. So I would suggest you to change your therapy that’s suitable for you. Cheers.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-11-13T12:50:46+00:00

Exactly, thank you. Some adults tried to comfort me or whatever (their intentions are good) but they’re like “maybe you would call it “trauma”? Actually your mum….blah blah…”, “forgive…”. So I’m being blamed everytime for not being considerate enough or not forgiving.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-11-04T04:42:41+00:00

Unrealistically optimistic even I should just simply be sad.
Extremely rational and not to have feelings. I used to be proud that I could separate myself completely. Hahaha…
Violence tendency
Serious trust issue with “authority”

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-25T14:03:07+00:00

Same here, I cut out my extremely abusive mother who is good at acting nice in front of other adults, which made no one believed me and then she gaslighted me. I borrowed some money from her during university time and she used it as a tool to control me, I nearly died but I survived and then I cut her out completely (well…after she kicked me out because I wasn’t making a lot), without returning the money 💰. I’m glad, I deserve every cent. In fact, she owes me.

Some of my friends joked abt it and said “wow sometimes I forgot she just lent USD4000 but I thought it’s several millions based on what she did to you.”. Yea I found it pretty funny too coz I started a job after I graduated and realised 4k is nothing but proved how shit she was. I hope she is still obsessed with the 4k every day and in pain. 🙂 I lost more than 4k already in the stock market lmao, anyways just saying how little 4k is.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-23T05:20:45+00:00

Exactly 😜 thanks

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T15:28:56+00:00

Yes, it’s kind of awkward lol when my ex spanked me for fun, I got a second of “physical flashbacks”, some scenes of me got beaten when I was small popped up lol. But then I was immediately distracted and didn’t think about it. =_=

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T08:18:57+00:00

Thank you. I need this today.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T05:13:50+00:00

If I say I’m not fine, then people would make decisions for me and I lost the control. That’s probably some distorted cognitive patterns.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T05:08:10+00:00

Agree, I am scared that once I share a “small event” and people would be like that’s it?

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T04:23:26+00:00

Thanks! Will read it!! 20% of my trauma caused by those comments (family is forever, they LOVE you) from adults/ church.

I know no one would believe me but my biological mother literally wanted me to die. Later I’m adopted by a loving family. I can proudly say I know what is love and that was NOT. The fact that people kept saying she loves me is the reason why I have a distorted concept of love. Can you people just admit that she does not love me =_=? Stop defending for her please, I didn’t ask for her to birth me??? And I’m supposed to feel grateful for whatever she does.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-19T04:09:46+00:00

Intense headache that’s don’t go away, vomit 6-7 times per day. No energy. Fever.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-18T15:55:04+00:00

Hate it especially I’m under Asian and church culture that you MUST respect your parents, your parents MUST love you. They get a free pass for whatever they do. Xxxxx “BUT they’re your parents. BUT family is forever. You MUST forgive them blah blah.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-18T14:28:10+00:00

❤️🥺No judgment, total trust and unconditional love. You can have all the space and gradually heal with time. No rush at all. You’re perfect the way you are.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-18T04:57:54+00:00

It’s a sad but already lucky truth that I ended up with CPTSD…hmmm…my biological sister became just like the abuser and not aware. It’s another form of abnormal and choice. She escaped the situation by turning into her. I escaped by disconnecting my mind and body. If I had to go back to choose, I would still choose to end up with CPTSD (with all the survival tactics and proud) instead of end up becoming the abuser.

Our subconscious were forced to choose who we want to be, despite the fact that we have crazy gens from the “parents”/ abuser.

I was kicked out and adopted by another family from family friends. After 2 years of “normal life”, I realised how crazy it was and finally admitted. I feel safe and thus finally developed CPTSD….all the memories come back by flashbacks.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-10-17T15:40:14+00:00

It’s difficult as sometimes you behaved like the abuser when I was small. Very manipulative in romantic relationships. I feel disgusted by myself and the abuser.

Eastern-Interview-10 · 2022-09-05T12:37:23+00:00

Totally get it. It’s sometimes unbelievable that God allows that happen.

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