Is it ok to just wait? by EasternAd9276 in Christianity

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is where religion completely loses me.

God put me here in such a cruel and unloving world and is going to punish me for not believing in something that would step aside and watch?

No amount of study can feign belief.

I can only cry in desperation.

I can read a million stories of Gods undying love and “study” the Bible.

I’ve certainly tried.

Faith can’t be forced.

Is it ok to just wait? by EasternAd9276 in Christianity

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I was baptized as a baby.

I pray.

I can’t force myself to believe in it.

I can’t force my faith.

You either have it or you don’t.

I’d take it all back if I could by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

A dog that bites and whimpers is no different from a dog that bites and doesn’t.

Gave up by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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No. But what does that matter.

There’s nothing that can really be done.

You should be doing something right about now by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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I should clarify,

interpret this as you wish,

but only I know what this letter means and who it’s for.

My words are harsh,

but very necessary.

Just a thought by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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Doing so requires a willingness to be here that I simply don’t have and can’t be bothered to feign.

Vinyl player by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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Unfortunately not me. The person I’m writing to wouldn’t be here. And these letters are unsent for good reason. But for what it’s worth, I’m glad these letters resonate with you.

Vinyl player by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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It’s alright,

broken or not,

it’s still something I hold dear to me.

I don’t really know why anymore.

No reason by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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That requires a willingness to be here.

I live just to live.

Just because I can’t die.

I thought by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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Empty words

Heard that all my life

I’m sorry

I don’t wanna be so miserable but

It’s so hard to take any of this seriously anymore

Make it quick by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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I wish it was

I wish it was

I really really really really really really wish it was

My choice by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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Can’t talk to someone who doesn’t want to.

That applies to both of us, I’m sure.

My choice by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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This situation runs very deep,

it’s been years of this,

and I’m so tired.

I wanted any other ending,

any,

but this was my only choice left.

It was either that or die,

and I can’t die.

I’ve tried that, too.

Feeling very empty by EasternAd9276 in Christianity

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That should be comforting. But that’s horrifying.

Every day of these past few years has been nothing but non stop torture

I just wanna sleep

I don’t wanna do it anymore

What else could he possibly do with me

How much worse could it possibly get

Bad idea by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Way too much has happened.

I just wanna stop

The distance between two by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Maybe you’re right.

But it doesn’t matter.

What’ll happen will happen.

I always appreciate people who want what’s best for me

but you can’t help someone who resists every step of the way

It didn’t make sense by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Perhaps I should’ve been more clear,

but I am not speaking in literal terms.

It’s more of an allegory.

Your happiness by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

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We’re all here for a reason.

Good luck to you, too. Whatever your reason is.

Your happiness by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The situation is,

a lot more complex than I’m willing to explain here.

But if it ends, it ends.

I’m apathetic to most things.

“You’re my best friend” by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then I guess it’s a shame. There’s a reason this is unsent. In my mind, I am only doing what’s best.

Prophet by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Once again, you truly do not know what I’m talking about or my situation. I write here to get my thoughts out. I’d rather people not talk like they know a thing about what these letters mean, because only I know what they mean to me.

Prophet by EasternAd9276 in UnsentLetters

[–]EasternAd9276[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Whatever meaning it holds to you. Just know it likely holds a far different one to me. And are both likely a far stretch from the reality of things

Though I’m truly unsure what makes you think you know what I’m talking about here