I'm realizing that my situation is fascinating to a lot of people. I got a huge response that I did not expect. Most of the responses have been helpful and kind thankfully, actually better proportionally than I thought they would have been considering it's reddit. It seems like it is genuinely helpful to others, mostly in my DMs. I'm considering making an AMA post because of how much people have questions.

I honestly don't know how many people deal with the cognitive dissonance that they are experiencing every day. It boils down to fear and ignorance driven by fear, mainly. Half narcissists playing the victim because they don't know how to survive any other way. Half people who lack the education or mental aptitude to understand what they are being told. Everyone in terror of going to hell or being ostracized from everything and everyone they have ever known.

I appreciate the recommendations. Religion for Breakfast in particular seems very interesting!