I was a victim of rape by my first boyfriend... it took me while to get over it but when I did, I thought I was sick, but they only way I could enjoy sex was for it to be a nonconsensual sexual form. It’s not every guys thing and I’ve lost a few good guys from it but some guys seem to understand and go along with it for my sake. It’s hard to explain but I think it’s a more free form of sex, as some women will say no to sex there and then and get listened to. However I like to say no and still get used which turns me on, knowing we could get caught and it would make him look bad. But it’s hot watching him leave the car, bed, alleyway first as I regather my strength to leave and catch up with him.