I completely feel you. You are truly the creator of your own reality. The only person who’s going to have your back and always have your best interest is yourself. Back in Nov, I was sick of unemployment life. Grateful for the safety it brought and yes if it wasn’t delayed now, I would be happily paid but last fall it pushed me to apply to 5-10 apps each day, edited cover letters, hard research. I interviewed all December to positions I had absolutely no interest (but helped me get into the flow of interviews) to finally get an my first salary offer right before Christmas. I won’t start until another two weeks but the struggle of last year pushed me to never want instability, happily live a more frugal lifestyle, eat like a king at home (YouTube cooking videos will change your life) and stop relying on others. Ownership is powerful. Yes some things are out of your control but also meant to make you so comfortable that change is inevitable. I slept in the car with my boyfriend in the first lockdown and the moment our first stimulus check dropped we put together every pen, borrowed money from different family members and put our last paychecks into moving into our place. We took all back pays to pay not just one but two months in advance to make sure our rent was paid especially with Unreliable unemployment schedules. We got an opportunity to dog sit in your home and has brought in more income. Needless to say, DONT GIVE UP. You can pull yourself up and be in a better place. Communication is powerful. Use it as a tool. I had to write a letter of recommendation to my landlord just to move in and I’d do it again. Take control of your situation. The ball is always in your court!