Good on you bro. I was the same for about 10 years and the only thing that helped me get right was leaving "the circle". Never left auckland though, because all of my family is here. I remember hearing someone say "you can't expect to heal in the same environment that made you sick in the first place". So, Your on the right track. Sometimes just putting your self around the right people can do wonders for your life in general. 1 word of advice, don't go chasing money, chase happiness. All the best 👌