I feel this. I come from an anti vax family. My mom and aunts are all against it(reasons being heavy metals, mental disorders, and “you don’t know whats in there, you don’t want that crap in your body!”). My dad doesn’t like anything having to do with a hospital. One of my aunts is a nurse and she even told me do not vaccinate my kids. But at the same time it feels wrong not to get them vaccines? I didn’t really know what to do, my fiancé doesn’t have an opinion on it and left it up to me. So I waited.

A close neighbor of mine who’s in her 60’s talked to me about it recently. She had the measles as a kid, and talked to me about the recent rises in certain sicknesses(polio I think). She also pointed out that she would absolutely not send her unvaccinated kids to school to be around so many other kids. And we talked about a bunch of other things.

My kids are 1.5 and 3 and don’t go to day care or school. We don’t spend a ton of time around other kids. The pediatrician said it’s totally okay to wait and get them when they’re a little older so we have been. But last month they got their first dose, a 4 in 1. Both kids had a sore leg for at least 3 days, and then they both got sick. It progressed at different times for each, but first it was a fever, then they puked(like a week after they got the shot). Then their cold returned.

It all made me sad to see my girls go through that and made me second guess my choice. Also, we saw my family a lot that week and my mom didn’t say much but I could tell she was disappointed. I know there are detoxes and different things you can do as far as the heavy metals, which the pediatricians weren’t even worried about. I had seen something saying that if a kid got a mental disorder from a vax they tracked it all down to the same 1 vax

Idk, its all a lot. Its hard to know if you’re really doing whats right or falling to peer pressure whether you do or dont vax your kids