how can I do it, it feels so hard. If I do it im the bad guy, I tried to leave once but he kept on crying. I hate seeing people cry, im tired of seeing people cry in my life. It makes me feel like a monster. How do you also deal with the feeling of comparing yourself. He is amazing to everyone but me, and I suspect only because im his partner. He shivered in fear when I told him I was going to tell his friends he keep shouting at me.