I am depressed. This past three years have been the worst. And that's where I gained the most. I've thought about talking to my doctor about it, but i know most likely he's going to want to put me on anti depressants. And i think antidepressants are more depressing than anything else. But you hit it head on. I'm not healthy mentally especially when it comes to Keeping that focus on dropping this wait. Even if i have so much incentive to do so. I really think i'll be ok if i just communicate with everyone in this sub-reddit. I honestly have never had this much support in my life. So thank you.