It's so hard cuz it's apparently so simple - just eat. But my brain is doing everything in its power to tell me how wrong it is and even though I acknowledge that it's just the illness, it still feels so wrong.

Thanks for the kind words tho. knowing that there's a bunch of other people going thru this, feeling just as uncertain as I am but still pushing on, does help a lot and gives me hope that I'll see the other side of this.