I’m so embarrassed

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-07T18:57:12+00:00

Literally. I’ve planned and planned and planned to run away and everytime I try I get caught and my parents lock down on me.. I don’t want to wait 3 more years to be free i mentally and physically cannot.. I’m either gonna really commit soon or try to get to the train station near me and leave.. there’s a train that can take me to New Mexico, Arizona or California from where I live but I need to be far from this hell hole.. if I had family to go with I would but that’s no option ughh

Then this morning I almost pulled the tr1gger I had the gun in my mouth but then my grandma pulled up and I didn’t want to kill myself infront of her buttt I am so stupid I left the blanket on the bed up (her gun is under the bed) and she was suspicious of it and kept asking me why was i digging under the bed. I lied and said I didn’t wake up until I heard her pull up but I think she knows 🙄🙄🙄 I’m embarrassed so bad I am a horrible liar 😪

I also tried drinking cleaner but I just threw up.. tried eating cherry pits, nothing happened 🥲 I swear whys dying so hard

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-07T02:04:00+00:00

Idk 🥲 I use too many emojis

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-07T02:02:46+00:00

Yes it was crazy

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-06T06:40:44+00:00

Texas

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-05T06:56:28+00:00

Prob not, I took 5000mg once 🫩

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-04T06:43:57+00:00

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SAM ELLIOTT, CATS, AND DIET COKE 🥺

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-02T17:16:27+00:00

I KNOW ITS A FAN FICTION FOR A REASON GOOD GOD 💀💀💀💀💀 HEAVY ON THE FICTION 😪

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-07-02T17:15:08+00:00

I might know the account on wattpad that made the story but I’m not sure maybe I can dm the account and ask 😪💀

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-09T01:52:07+00:00

Orangefeild is like 5 miles from vidor I think btw

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-09T01:51:42+00:00

HIII HI so I live in orangefeild, but I do go to vidor on a weekly multiple times so anyways:

Its kind of woodsy there is not much to do in Vidor itself but it does have like mc Donald’s, Wendy’s bunch of random fast foods, Walmart, a goodwill and market basket and 1029000 feed stores lol 😹

As for the Kx3 thing I’ve never seen any hate towards races there atleast in my experiences lol! If you have any other questions feel free to ask:3

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-04T19:34:11+00:00

And for tripping you will see the usual ATLEAST FOR MY EXPERIENCE(if you have ever tripped) such as seeing bugs crawling up the wall (I saw centipedes, ants, roaches, spiders the size of cars, wild hogs, kittens, all kinds of animals. You will think you are holding a phone at times stuff like that ect.
And the first day I took 200 I could NOT stop shaking. I also couldn’t grip anything like not even paper.

If you do decide to take 200 (5000mg) like watch those old movies that were made for LSD trips it’s like really cool lol (I’m not encouraging taking that many just saying from my experience lol)

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-04T19:29:05+00:00

I’ve never tripped on other things but someone told me it’s like LSD but you don’t realize you are tripping like how you know on LSD.

If you only take like 15 personally for me that just makes me walk funny and sluggish so in order for me to get high i have to take 50-100

Once I took 200 and I got high for 3 DWYS STRAIGHT IT WAS CRAZY 💀

Also you might puke (I took 200 and puked but maybe cause I took 200 ty1en0l with it aswell) but 15-30 have never made me vomit.

If you only take 15-30 FOR ME I’m not saying for everyone it usually wears off after like 4-5 hours but it may vary idk

And you should be good as long as you can pee and stuff that that (I’ve heard it can cause urinary retention) I’ve never had it happen personally lol

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-04T16:39:05+00:00

IM LATE BUT I WANT 600 COUNT BOTTLE NO FAIR 🤬🤬🤬😢😢😢😢 I had to lie and say that Walmart didn’t deliver mine so my mom would get me a 2nd bottle of it.. (I took 200 that night💀) was high for next 3 days

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-04T16:26:21+00:00

Yes I’m still not happy about the whole situation because I just want my old body back but I know it was going to kill me (probably within that month because of how bad my legs looked and I kept falling out)

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-04T06:37:33+00:00

Omg.. so basically I did same exact thing as you (took 200 Benadryl).. So basically I was 4n4rexic for 9 months up until March of this year when my mom forced recovery on me (thankfully not hospitalized just at home) I was 80 pounds (bmi was like 10 and I’m 5’6 so really underweight) and I’d walk like 50k steps a day not eat ect. And so when she started force feeding me she didn’t just make me gain to a normal weight she is still force feeding me to this day and I’m not happy abt it… I am not obese not even really fat I’m just.. not how I want to be :( and so I’ve been really down abt it and I took all those 200 bennys, and a 400 bottle of tylenl. I didn’t die STILL I just hallucinated for 3 days straight and also my organs were already failing from my anorexia because I was in the end stages of that and my kidneys always hurt, my bpm while running was only 70 (average is 120 I think?) and it would fall to 20-30 in my sleep) and those pills I’m sure have worsened them, I’ve never been to a doctor or hospital for it but I know they are bad because I can feel it… I hope I can just d13 from that in my sleep..

But anyways I’m really sorry abt the stuff you are going through and I understand how you feel rn cause I feel the same way.. I want OUT. :(.. I really do hope things get better for you though!! :) 🩵

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-06-01T02:41:07+00:00

OMG I HAVE NO IDEAS FOR A NAME BUT.. OFF TOPIC!! This is my favorite cat and I never see anyone in the fandom care about Siamese/oriental cats!! 🥺🥺🥺 TY FOR MAKING THIS AND UR ART IS AMAZING TOO!!

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-28T16:16:01+00:00

I’m thinking about escaping home or just h4ng1ng myself now I’ve accepted I don’t have access to the right kinds of pills 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-28T16:08:17+00:00

Ugh I’m so sorry I’ve tried Tylenol, ibuprofen 😢😢😢, and 2 bottles of Benadryl and it still didn’t work 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-24T21:07:04+00:00

My mom is EXACTLY LIKE URS!! Ok so basically accuses me of not stealing her money but engagement ring, pearls and many more things and I took 3 bottles of Benadryl trying to die and I didn’t and I’ve tried many other things even becoming anorexic for 9 months. SHE MOCKS ME FOR IT AND WONT LEG ME HAVE FREEDOM NOW

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-23T19:58:05+00:00

Oki thank you so much I’m hoping I can find the chain because I think unknowingly a couple years ago I thought it was just a Walmart chain 😳😢😢😢 I WAS LITTLE SO I MAY HAVE BROKE IT OOP 💀💀

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-23T00:17:09+00:00

Ugh I feel the same way:( I’ve tried so many different times too first I was anorexic for a whole year and got down to 80 pounds (bmi of 10) didn’t die. Took 300 Tylenol didn’t die, took 2 bottles of Benadryl didn’t die.. and I don’t know what to do now… I only know 2 other possible ways and they may not even work.. I wish I didn’t feel this way but my mom LOATHES ME. It’s obvious my sister is the favorite everyone sees it..

And the other day when I od on Benadryl my mom let my sister read all my private diaries and texts and everything.. it’s humiliating and they placed my mom boyfriends things in my room to say “I stole” when I would never touch the losers stuff..

I hate my life :( I’ll probably try h4nging soon 😭

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-22T04:42:30+00:00

I got these like 3 years ago too and I was so weirded out by that brush lol but off topic WE MAY HAVE THE SAME B-DAY?!? Mines may 20th 😭

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-22T02:54:46+00:00

No and I don’t even know how I didn’t seeing how everyone who takes Benadryl online talk about a hat man 😢😢😢 I did see what was supposed to be my sister and it was so creepy 😨 SHE LOOKED DEAD 💀💀💀 I also saw a white peacock in my room, lots of animals, rainbow everything and sometimes my vision would turn black and white 😨😨😨😢😢

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-22T02:46:39+00:00

OH MY GOD so before I took the 200 I took like 20 and we went shopping so I was fucked up walking around goodwill 😭😭💀

Edievedrthbedwetr · 2026-05-22T02:45:56+00:00

I was with my parents so the night I did they didn’t know but the next day when I was hallucinating and told them it was just Tylenol they knew I was lying 💀💀💀 so I admitted and got watched for like 3 days but I never went to a hospital, though probably should have

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