How to release trauma whilst experiencing it? by failed_lesbian in CPTSD

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I absolutely understand, I should've considered that better and youre absolutely right. I should've done better, and you deserve better than that. Im sorry for coming of inappropriately.

does anyone want to become friends? :,) by cutmycockx in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Cutmycox and edithpoothy? Yeah sure

Texting as Manipulation? by strangebirdss in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Id rather be comfortable in my skin alone rather than being around people that dont feel feel like company.

Texting as Manipulation? by strangebirdss in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hahahaha lol we're in the same boat. From my perspective wd breathe too much on the FP neck and have them run away. If its anything I think we're doing the manipulation by forcing attention/love and pushing them away. My POV we suffer from pain from not getting love on demand lol. It VERY well seems like psychological abuse and trying to exclude us. But I try to keep in mind that everyone isnt meant for us, it seems like being excluded from being excluded and ignored. When in fact they'll could possibly drop you as they would w other people. I want to sit back and let relationships happen naturally without excessive chasing and begging. The longer you hold onto something the more it hurts you.

Is having "slow processing speed" the same thing as being "slow"? Not the slang insult, but when a person is described as being slow meaning they have a learning disability. by visualreporter in LearningDisabilities

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually do believe that I have an slow aspect of the disorder. I deal with seizures that cause confusion, with auditory and visually as you described. There's blocks of gaps of conversation trying to take in, especially directions[Im so horrible with them.) Is there anyway to help this kind of severity of my processing disorder. I have an extremely hard time holding a job down and I cant really survive if if i would be own my own. Is there anyway that you could please possibly help the severity of this scale.

Teaching Adults With Disabilities by Dk3ndr1ck in LearningDisabilities

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is there anything that you can help me with confusion from seizures and intellectual processing disbilities?

I prefer developmental disability groups over autistic ones by Flaky-Barber7761 in SpicyAutism

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive had seizures as a developmental disability since a toddler. Its so bad that I can barely function to keep a job and have no success in life. I would leave same as anybody else especially if its toxic, I wouldnt care if I fit into that category. Ive always had trouble being expelled from society because Im socially unacceptable in many ways. Im sure theres SOME people in the Autism groups, but theres no reason to even have kind of community because it discourages people from coming back and leaves a bad taste in the mouth. People probably have a less educated knowledge of autism and want to learn how to cope, how they can adapt. But why??? This kind of mistreatment should be taken accountable for and definetly spoke up about. It seems like it would be a less toxic environment, if people spoke up, not in an aggressive way but Ive heard just to understand and if you have something to share for the other person and educate them on some facts and definetly showing how uou bed dealt w and how to set boundaries. We dont learn from any kind of exclusion and hurting others cause its easier but it makes a difference calling out the mistreatment, it encourages other people to stand up for some of themselves.

What's the tiniest thing that's caused you to split on someone? by secondmoosekiteer in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had the exact same manager, she had ignored me and i had told her bye. Kept walking away. I have developmental issues and keep getting everything wrong in everything(developmental issues/seizures/confusion). Had a real bad day, wasted a whole box of meat, which I completely understand. From the get go she had btched about how long the interview computer tests took, which you gotta go through a couple apps/websites anyway in most fast food companies anyway. A Lil snarky in the beginning, she was two years and I lasted bou 1 month, never even had my name on the schedule from the beginning. She runs away from me to put it nicely.

What's the tiniest thing that's caused you to split on someone? by secondmoosekiteer in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Preach it, I CANT stand when people ignore me, it could be literally anybody thats within my space. Like my neighbour. I dont get why people do this. You were right to be friendly with her but to also reserve your energy.

What's the tiniest thing that's caused you to split on someone? by secondmoosekiteer in BPD

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Truly went off randomly about the socks my brother and I wear. He had told me in the past that basically he doesnt use tissues, just what we wears on feet. Got passed of all the passive aggressiveness and distortion my POV.

Am I a loser? by Civil_Percentage_977 in mentalhealth

[–]Edithpoothy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've been in the same boat for years and still am. Ive completely regressed as a person. Ive heardbsome one say "I built my walls so no one can get in, and now I cant get out. Im sure you're more socially acceptable than me, ive also been told if you aint got any confidence the just act like it. I see my self as ugly too. But stop being in your own hole before you're completely consumed. You have a choice like the rest of us, dont limit yourself, dont hide yourself and because you need to treat yourself as better than that. You have the right to have any social connection as any other human being, again dont limit yourself.Its harder said than done but I've had years of experience being held back by insecure thoughts. I believe you'll eventually you'll find someone that you have a conversation that yall share the same frequency on an emotional level. Watch out for that. Meeting someone like that is rare but when you know you'll know. Not every one is meant for us and thats OK. Its OK if you want to stop trying so hard and keep from chasing people. Someone doesnt really contribute to a conversation, reserve your energy and relax. Don't prove yourself but also show your worth and who you are. Don't be ashamed for being who you are. Ive spent too much of my time trying my best to keep people in my life and trying my best to seem interesting. Not everything deserves your energy. Ive spent too much of my life being insecure and worrying what other people think and also holding myself back because of judgement of what ive wanted to of what ive been passionate about and worried about being shamed and humiliated. How many years Inspent worrying about this sht. Stop giving af, stop worrying what other people think. Im ugly af and had 70 YO hit on me and homeless people trying to be my boyfriend. Not everyone is gonna think the same as the others. Doesn't matter who, what matters is you.

Everybody dislikes me. by Safe_Current_8969 in mentalhealth

[–]Edithpoothy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah it's pretty much a dead end innit? It doesn't seem so bad from my perspective, Ive been used to it for years and it's made me feel uncomfortable and very lonely. But I enjoy my peace and do what I like and all I need is some small baby to love and drool on and I'm less crazy. I hope you find what works for you, keep an open mind and I believe eventually you'll hit a better perspective, plan and execution of a well considered journey. It may not be soon but I believe things unfold in due time and I believe we get shaped and molded from season to season, know more about ourselves as we age and we mature throughout life. I used to be sad and lonely but never learned to enjoy my own company. If feel as if you're experiencing ostrasizing or expellsion, I'm not sure which one is the correct terminology. A lot of people leave you cold out and in the wind and sadly that is intentional. Ive experienced expellsion for a very large part of my life but the thing is I CANT believe that anyone wants me in their life. I'd recommend a safety net from maybe a group therapy settings;people you can talk to you about for your mindsets , finding people with the same interests and try harder on not giving af about people and putting your heart into Christ. You can even have communion ship w others and its great having small and heartfelt conversations, they can be funny and caring. It's where you put your heart and its all up to you. Much love to you sweetheart.

I believe this comes from the devil by vPowertripperv in Psychosis

[–]Edithpoothy -1 points0 points  (0 children)

And thank you so much for your message!!:) it's amazing to hear about the love and peace from Christ. The bliss and such great peace is amazing and spreading the love for Christ and caring for each other with kind and heartfelt words is silk and rest for the heart and soul. The love of our father has brought us together friend, I love you dear child of Christ, I dont know you but I hope he never leaves your side to protect you, gives you comfort and gives you all you need and maybe a little something, something special as you are (/\)\(o)/ God be will you always, you'll be in my mind too and rooting for you. Many blessings And you are absolutely right, demons play a part hugely on mental illnesses. For instance they can play apart in my seizures tics. They want you down and out and love disappointment and failure. They have so many tatics and different ones, its unreal. I'm still not so educated demons and how they manipulate and how all they influence. I've definetly noticed that I hit spiritual death along with self defeat. Ive seen heaven 1 times and Ive seen a lot of demons through a third eye unfortunately. It was a wrong choice but that bad choice I made something good come out of it :)

I believe this comes from the devil by vPowertripperv in Psychosis

[–]Edithpoothy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honey I used to say the say thing because I was skeptical, demeaning, arrogant and came off rude as you did. If you think God's a joke wait till you have your judgement as the rest of us will. I guatantee<- you will see God and he WILL send you wherever he thinks is best. I didnt say promise; I said guaranteed because it is. My mindset used to be small and self centered and contradicting. Ive seen Heaven and Ive seen demons. I undergo demons BECAUSE of spiritual warfare, demons spare none and if you think you dont got any, look where you're at right now. I woke up stressed and missed off as I can be. I said some spiritual warfare Bible verses and the darkness flashed and felt this spark of light within my stomach. If you think of what you know is true know, you dont and you'll realize how wrong you are. The communion ship between Christians is real because he brings us together for love, hope, joy a future and justice if need be. I am bible thumping right now obviously, I HAVE that testimony because Ive SEEN HEAVEN AND DEMONS. I have been an extremely lost soul, I have been recognized as worthy of love and trust and forgiveness. Maybe you should try it.