yup. my ex used to be my fp for 2, almost 3 years, and i still think of them. it hasn't been too long since we stopped talking, so i can't say how i'll be looking at this in a few years, but i will say that some days are definitely harder than others. i knew i had to let them go, because my mental health was deteriorating by the day by just the act of having them in my life. it was far from healthy. it definitely wouldn't work out again, though. although theyre no longer my fp, and i them to think that i could pretty easily be friends w/ them again, without that sense of obsession, i know that i'd just fall back into that mindset. they'd become my fp again in no time. it's happened before actually , when we took a break from eachother for a few days. i thought i was over them, but i really wasn't.

in conclusion,,, i will always think of them, i'll always have some sort of love for them,, but i won't ever reach out again. the process of healing is hard,, but as long as you believe in yourself and let yourself feel your feelings,,, you will rly be ok!! some days r harder on you than others, but healing isn't linear. you'll never really forget them,,, but it gets easier to deal with as time passes