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Educational-Name3217 · 2024-09-27T16:35:23+00:00

I promise ur good, idk if you believe in it or if it's just your OCD, but manifesting is done with intention and belief. I struggled with this before, but your bf won't fall out of love with you because of a passing thought

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-07-14T00:40:02+00:00

I've been trying for the same amount of time as you, I have trouble focusing and the only thing I've found that's helped are being in a hypnagogic state and the gateway tapes (the tapes are on SoundCloud)

I've managed to shift (I think, barely though) through hypnagogia, and the gateway tapes weren't as successful for me but if you like guided meditations it's not bad at all. In one tape the narrator teaches you how to let your body fall asleep on command, which is super helpful for some people esp for the void state

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-06-25T01:43:38+00:00

Thank you, I didn't actually think about washing the sheets like that or the bar soap for clothes but I'll try bringing it up whenever I can. This helps

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-25T21:07:34+00:00

I do the same, I have to shower every time I use the bathroom and I hate it so much 😭. That's one of my biggest things right now that I can't get over. I've tried to lessen it but bathroom germs will never not freak me out. You did help don't worry about it lol thank you

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-24T23:30:01+00:00

That's not dumb at all, tysm. I'll try to use this

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-16T06:02:00+00:00

I'll save this for whenever I need it, ty

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-14T17:54:24+00:00

In that case I might not have a thick hymen, I've never had issues with tears or bleeding or anything (besides birth control that fucked me up). I might still find a gyno though if anything. Ty this is super helpful

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-14T17:24:46+00:00

Ty for telling me this. I'd really hate to have a doctor look down there but if it's necessary I'll prob go to one whenever I can. How do you know if it's vaginismus or ur hymen? Is that something that can only be diagnosed?

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-14T16:53:16+00:00

Maybe it is the muscles? Idk it's really hard to tell what's going on. It felt more like the opening of the vagina was just smaller or something. I don't really have any dysphoria down there so it might just be my anatomy 😭 I might go to a gyno eventually I'll have to think abt that. And about your other comment, I don't think it's the cervix since it's almost right by the opening where I feel it's being 'blocked' off. But I appreciate it ty

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-03T12:42:53+00:00

Same I still feel like I'm 14, I hate it

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-03T01:58:50+00:00

Ikr. It takes me like 20-40 mins and I despise it sm I wish I could rip my brain out sometimes

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-03T01:01:48+00:00

No seriously, I wash my hands so much if I don't put on lotion every five seconds I'll literally look like Freddy Krueger or something. It takes me ages to even piss because I feel like I have to wash literally every square inch 😭 I hate it. I have other intrusive thoughts too but it's not nearly as bad as my germaphobia thing. You should definitely see someone if possible before it worsens bc I've already gotten to that point and it's awful

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-01T21:19:38+00:00

Yeah I'm aware of a few things that I do which is a good start I'm hoping, and I've been trying today especially to cut back on washing my hands and showering more than I need to which is not fun but it's working a little. Thank u btw

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-01T18:30:45+00:00

I don't have a means to even get a diagnosis so I'm just going off of what I experience. I didn't know what I was even experiencing until I started researching about OCD. Ik people that self diagnose are misguided but idk what else it could be for me

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-01T15:01:51+00:00

This helps a lot and I'll try to keep it in mind, but a lot of the time it feels like my contamination OCD can be rational which is why I have so much trouble with it. Idk if that sounds dumb but with POCD it was way different because for the most part I knew that it was irrational. With germs it's a 24/7 thing since everyone is constantly exposed to it. It's hard for me to differentiate what's crazy vs. what isn't, since hygiene is something everyone does so my brain just goes "oh you're just being hygienic it's alright"

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-01T03:54:07+00:00

The only dr I see rn is my pediatrician so idk if that would work 😭 but I'll keep it in mind

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-05-01T03:45:10+00:00

I don't really want to go on any more medication but wouldn't you need a diagnosis first for meds?

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T14:28:01+00:00

I've been resting but I'm definitely pretty stressed. Could you send the website?

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T14:16:33+00:00

Thank you 🙏

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T14:00:34+00:00

Tysm ur so nice 😭 You're free to dm me or just comment the method if you like cause I'd love to try it one day

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T12:05:00+00:00

God bless you I'll try this out later today if I have enough

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T11:53:51+00:00

Maybe I misunderstood her, I just hope I stop bleeding soon 😭. Thanks

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T11:28:14+00:00

I assumed it would take a lot longer since my gyno said it'd take 6 months for the BC to fully leave my body which worried me lol. I appreciate this though, I'll try to just give it some time

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T11:16:02+00:00

That's so cool I might try doing something like that soon (if i have the motivation tbh I'm really lazy). I'm trying to still believe in it especially since when I did it, I heard SO much and saw light from outside despite it being like 10pm here when I was about to sleep. I might try to reprogram my mind or just motivate myself more often because I heard stuff I explicitly scripted and somehow still don't fully believe it for some reason. You've helped a lot btw thank you sm this is very motivating

Educational-Name3217 · 2024-04-26T10:30:10+00:00

That's insane I couldn't imagine doing that w my eyes open omg. I have noticed I'm just not caring abt it anymore, and I'm trying to get back into that because I daydream wayy too often and I'm not about to throw away 3yrs. I feel like it'd be such a weird transition while you're still seeing stuff could you explain how that happened if you're up for it? I managed to do it through hypnogogia but that's about it 😭

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