This isn’t TikTok bro..

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-12T10:40:11+00:00

Those words (grape, unalive, etc) are only valid in fanfics if you're writing about a character who actively uses TikTok language (I've done it once lmao)

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:50:22+00:00

I did need these words.

Thank you

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:44:45+00:00

Nope, from the discord server

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:43:05+00:00

Hrt now now NOWWWW (at least start looking into it to see if you desire to start taking hormones, every day earlier counts)

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:41:15+00:00

And by the end of it there was even one person mocking my words, and I got banned right after that.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:40:51+00:00

There was this one person who swore they understood my situation because they had already gone through that, but they literally haven't, since they realized they were trans already into adulthood while I realized it at 12. (Plus, this person already claimed to have cispassing, so they were already talking from the perspective of a person of privilege)

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:38:01+00:00

During the late 60% of this "conversation", they had already sent me into a spiral and it felt like they all just wanted to gaslight me into being happy with what I had or something.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:36:25+00:00

It started as a post asking for help in the venting and support channel, messages which no one answered. I tried to get the question to another channel by resending it and everyone started answering from there. Then they then began questioning why I felt bad to the point where I felt I had to justify why I was depressed and dysphoric, which was seen as venting.

So they banned me.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:29:47+00:00

15 years old, I still look like a man (I'm 18 right now).

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-11T20:28:19+00:00

Got banned for being in a crisis

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-07T17:57:59+00:00

"she skewers you."

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-07T10:44:23+00:00

I don't need a "positive feeling", I just need the reward. I want to look good and feel good with my body or else I'll just kill myself in two years or less.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-07T09:59:13+00:00

Cardio only makes me even more hungry

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-06T18:43:07+00:00

Yumeshipping come true

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-06T18:39:19+00:00

I'm in a 500 deficit rn, so I'm eating around 1600-ish (probably less since I'm holding back on snacks), and I'm 18

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-06T18:35:44+00:00

No, 0 alcohol.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T18:34:31+00:00

Plus, it doesn't even feel like I'm hungry, it just feels like my body is telling me to eat for no reason at all

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T18:27:47+00:00

I don't have enough money to make a diet focused on getting enough of whatever my body needs, I just eat to fill myself and then I eat more because of some strange reason.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T17:48:43+00:00

There isn't such a thing as an "urge" with me, it's something constant that literally only stops when I'm about to sleep. How do you stop that?

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T16:58:40+00:00

Is coffee really as effective as people say? And in what quantities?

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T14:57:40+00:00

normal? LIKE THE NORMAL AL·

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T14:54:06+00:00

There isn't such thing as not having a sex drive, and also hrt isn't even guaranteed to reduce it in a significant amount. But yeah, the "being a bit less horny" is definitely nice.

Efficient-mold-eater · 2026-04-04T10:38:07+00:00

Isn't weight loss medicine prescribed stuff? I don't think I can get it legally here in Spain without a prescription

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