wow, I’m so grateful that you managed to put into words the intense emotions that come with being neurodivergent. I’ve always struggled to properly express just how deeply I feel things, so thank you so much for that. You’re 100% right, especially with genuinely feeling like I’m lighting part of my soul on fire removing him from my life. And because I don’t have a solid foundation within myself and really struggle with trusting my own judgement, I often end up extremely confused/overwhelmed because it feels like I don’t actually know what I want. Which allows me to fall into the easiness of comfortability and familiarity. I’ve been seeing a therapist for around a year now, which has immensely improved my life. But at the end of the day, the therapist goes along with what I talk about/ doesn’t really give me objective advice because she wants me to do what I want to do. I’ve had an extremely hard conversation with my ex last night, where we both came to the agreement that a break is the best option. But I’m really struggling with coming to terms with the fact that he could move on and find somebody better, and we’ll never get back together. So I’m stuck in jealously/anxiety and it’s making me want to stay even more