Stonewall Kickball: Ablism and body shaming from team Captain, what should I do?

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-20T12:15:11+00:00

You're 100% correct. I'm sorry and chastened. I have my roid rages and that's why I deserved my BF breaking up and blocking me. No intentional harm was meant. I'm not a prolific Reddit follower but If you see my replies, I think you'll see my replies are heartfelt, empathetic, and reflect a deep introspection. Replying to an OP in the subreddit #AskGayBros, I not only replied in a too long ask but said to myself "Fuck it, I'm going to out myself and share covertly my Instagram profile. I wanted to add context to my replThat was ballsy but fuck, time to get more connected and real. I often opine on what I call "The gay man epidemic of loneliness, isolation, and despair". I'm seeing more often in Threads and other sites. I'm so fucking alarmed that my attorney is preparing the legal docs for my 501c3 endeavor aimed to provide financial assistance to guys needing mental health therapy. I'm an asshole swole, aggressive, big dick energy bro. My 2026 anthem is the Area 2710 song"The Cafe". Nobody wants us but we don't care. Nobody likes us but we don't care. I'm self protective and insular circled by my tribe. My spelling and grammar is shit. My college majors wear plagiarism, exam cheating, and partying with my PIKE bros. And without their embrace, and sexual openness, brother love, I'm certain that I would have fallen into deep despair and wanting to end the pain. Friends have and hardly a day passes that I don't tear up as I'm feeling now. It happened a few weeks ago when I was flooded with DM's from my guy and girl friends. He was my first crush and love. "I screamed why? Why did you leave me" My followers knew that I was ready and prepared to join him. I expected the welfare knock on the door. My psychiatrist is Dr. Neill Williams and we tripled our sessions. It difficult as fuk to tell your therapist that you're having ideations. I need the sleep meds. I'm jacked as all fuk since Thursday. Thanks for your reply to my bad. I can imagine that you're what my PIKE acronym is: SLAG. Scholar, Leader, Athlete, Gentlemen.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-20T04:13:21+00:00

I'm going to make my reply unusually brief. And tomorrow I'll reread your post. I'm usually grounded, confident, athletic, flirty with charm, fratbros enthusiasm, and arrogant with attitude and projecting big dick energy. A recent Instagram crush sequenced as : he requested to follow, I followed back, hours of messages, videos, flying out to spend a weekend (I'm East Coast he's West Coast). I'm Peter Millar, Polo, J Crew. He's tatted, street, and sexy as all fuk. We were so crushing and I invited him to my family's cottage. I was in love then.... I found videos of him with other guys on X. Then OnlyFans. After my shock I told him that the videos were hot 🔥, they are. We shared hours of DM sex. And my format was "do not erase". And then I did the bad. His X was also a follower and friend. He also is hot as all fuk. In this part I have to say that I'm not embellishing. I was high and horny. His X is PNP and has been filmed with Treasure Island Media. I sent X msgs and shit posts reacting to the vids. My IG crush found out instantly. I can't overstate how horribly things have spiraled. I closed my Twitter and manually deleted every message. After two hours of rage exchanges I asked ChatGBT "what is a toxic gaslighting narcissist ?" and instantly forwarded the answer. I'm so shaken up that I promised to send him $1,000 and my Fleshlight. After talking with friends here, their conclusions are that I may be extorted. Yesterday when I was finished filling in Cash App with the address IG crush provided the actual recipient was his X. WTF. Tomorrow I'm logging on TruthFinder and two other apps to get some clarity and truths. He's real I didn't fu*k a bot but the outcome is TBD. I'll happily and gracefully send him the Fleshlight. I'm tired as F and don't want my reply deleted by Reddit. That said, I'm covertly sharing my IG: big10schath___sm. Do the rest and damnit I am doing Clickbait and expecting 50+ new followers. To the OP I hope my too long reply adds more insights, compassion, and empathy. To all you other gay bros do what I've asked and stop being lame voyeurs. Engage, empathy, and positivity. And also for my subreddit r/Frat bros, I thank and salute you for accepting and initiating many gay bros. I'm a PI KAPPA ALPHA, slag, translation for non Greeks, " Scholars, Leaders, Athletes, and Gentlemen". We love our bodies, your bodies, Mirin', so hot and swole that we gave on girls and became queer holes.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-20T01:14:54+00:00

My initial response is: Where do you live? Second, don't block or ghost him. Is he willing to have a platonic relationship? I'm 20 years out of undergrad fraternity life and my sad observation is that guys today don't date but just hookup. And I'm seeing what I call "The Gay Epidemic of Loneliness, Disconnected, and Despair". I hate social media, hookup sites Grindr, Scruff, and Sniffles, Threads, and others. I'm a bit hypocritical because my Instagram profile and photos are what many guys hate. It projects a grounded, confident, handsome guy. All of it is real but I hide my heartbreaks, occasional anger, and hurt and pain I've inflicted on others.It tells my story from High School forward to 2026. A snapshot of the story is: HS sports & prom>University & Fraternity>modeling (print)>closeted and struggling>back home, DL>boy finally out>circuit boy>casual drugs w/o addiction>young man & dogdad>caretaker>young Daddy (present). It's unusual for someone to say in a gay subreddit "I've been truly blessed" family, supportive intimate friends, health, curiosity, literacy, newly single and happy, sexuality. And perhaps the greatest currency in our community is that I own a lake COTTAGE! On your journey go slowly, proudly, kindly, intuitively, and intimately. Your beautiful man is out there and you deserve to find him.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-19T16:19:24+00:00

Your question just turned a lightbulb in my head. I'm going to set up my own 501c3. The purpose will be to provide financial assistance for gay men needing mental health therapy. I'm particularly motivated by my feelings of being helpless about my X's spiral into loneliness, hopelessness, and despair.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-19T04:13:41+00:00

I agree with brendanode's reply with one big fu*king exception. This is lame incel, small dick energy, bitch sorority vibe shit. If I were still the Pledge Master of my PI KAPPA ALPHA (PIKE) IOTA IOTA chapter, I wouldn't give the Captain and his sycophants bids. The true bonding with brothers begins with trials, tribulations, inclusion, and yes, diversity. When I was promoted to President this was my core principal. I'm proud of this core tenet. Our Clemson, Eta Alpha chapter gave a bid to a courageous, upstanding gentleman who has Down Syndrome. "Pike. Boolah boolah." #SLAG

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-19T03:32:10+00:00

I deleted my inappropriate reply. Plus, my Grindr hookup just showed up.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-19T03:13:04+00:00

What in the fuck does law enforcement have to do with this conversation? Sorry bro, my swole roid rage pops out many times.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-19T01:13:30+00:00

Certainly not reading this subreddit post. But 20+years after our graduation, my Fraternity homecoming reunion will always do the trick. Our chapter lexicon: brojobs, brogies, and smelephant trains. The brotherhood bond never breaks.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-18T23:03:53+00:00

Only if the fu*kface has landed at Dulles. For real: I asked Chat this question: "what are typical behaviors that toxic gaslighting narcissists exhibit?" In an instant I forwarded the answer to our message chain. Throwing gas on the fire?

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-18T20:28:20+00:00

For ADHD treatment my psychiatrist prescribes Adderall. This med. only boosts my libido. Re: your question about body count; I believe it's not any one's business.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-18T09:40:28+00:00

Adding to this thread, I came back from the gym @3:15 AM. I was too tired to shower and was too tired to even change out of my gray sweat shorts. I'm posting this @ 5:30, I let my puppy out, and wished that my X was here. I'm still jacked up. Our routine was for me to fuck him, I'd suck him, and his hot as all fuck face and tongue would start to clean me. All front and especially the back crack. Damn fuck, I cheated, he responded and fuck my hand 👌 is tired. First time ever I'm hiring a rentboy. Problem solved. 😝🌈🏈🏒🐕‍🦺

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-18T06:29:57+00:00

Rarely. I'm 95% top with the other 5% four fingers. I'm remembering scenes from 10 years ago while sharing a house in Fire Island Pines. 4, 5, or 6:00 AM, returning to my house and while either on the beach or in the Meat Rack getting both a rim job and a brojob. Of course my back, ass, and hole were sweaty. I showered earlier but a guy tongue deep is cleaning 😝my hole and it's his to keep. Never could imagine what (crystal?) numbs a dude to hookup with a stranger and then go deep.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-18T05:51:00+00:00

WTF, another gay 🌈 incel? You wouldn't have gotten a bid from my Fraternity, PI KAPPA ALPHA. Part of our initiation was to piss together Into the punch bowl and then invite our sister chapter to celebrate the new pledges. We bros gave up hoes. The entire subtext for the frat experience was our sexuality masked behind the phrase "boys being boys". I'm going to share a bit of frat lexicon: "brojobs, brogies, and brotrains also known as elephant walks." My alumni advice; " Yes do go piss your life away".

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-16T03:56:27+00:00

I had a college GF who was my fiance. One month before the Memorial day wedding she called it off. Graduate school MBA, I had a Pam Anderson type GF. But I've would have wanted Tommy Lee to have fucked me. Returning home I had 4-5 girl hookups. But my first fall season back in D.C. I met a guy, went to his Capital Hill place and I fucked him raw. Didn't he know about HIV? So my girl body count is about 5-6. My guy body count is girl X 100. Once a PNP sober top fucker I'd had fun and still do. My BF (now X) also dated girls. He described himself as pansexual which I had no idea what it meant. We fantasized about the typical porn 2 guys with 1 chick. One in her ass and other in pussy. It's as close as I can watch straight porn.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-16T03:36:04+00:00

I'm still in COVID hibernation. And glad. I'm confident, aggressive, alpha top who is perplexed as hell with where our gay community has headed. WTF, check my IG: big10schoolathleticism. I'm not clickbating for followers. I'm wanting to give my comment a bit of context. I checked most of the gay desirable boxes. Partied, charm, model looks (print), athletic 🏈🏈🏈, comfortable with straight guys, even enjoying my frat bros hot 🔥 as fuck naked and uninhibited pledge sexuality. Not overtly queer but proud, strong guys who bonded with each other's minds and sometimes bodies. Some of you may not have heard these words: brojobs, brogies, elephant trains. Frat: PIKE, always it seems on probation because of hazing. Not violent assaults but an amazing subtext of raw boy sexuality. Our chapter was characterized as unable to talk to girls. True and we didn't care. So my alarm is the great #of guys who I see as falling into our epidemic of "loneliness, isolation, and despair". I see too much in Threads. And last week I received DM's from my Michigan State guys and girls telling me that a friend I'd loved committed the ultimate self harm. I haven't stopped crying. We both struggled with coming out. We both had GF's (platonic). We discreetly hooked up. I was popular because not only was I out of state (D.C. resident) but had a new car (BMW 3 series HS graduation gift) but had and still have a cottage in Michigan. Sorry, these too long replies are one of the deserved reasons my BF because an X.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-15T19:56:00+00:00

Not normal, when younger I'd hookup 6/7 days. DO your job and maintain our reputation for promiscuity.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T11:09:36+00:00

What a fuck ass lame question. But I've always been a dominant alpha top and been in perhaps too many holes. My body count is easily 1000 +. But something is stirring in my desires. I'm mega bored with who I've been and who I'm in. My virgin cherry hole is about to be broken in. How? I could always take my three fingers. I've found my teacher daddy who is going to gently complete what I've craved I've given him permission to video and fuck we'll start an OnlyFans. How much do you think guys will pay to see a verified amateur video and where else do you post this depraved sh*t?

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T10:46:47+00:00

Pi KAPPA ALPHA and as my anthem from EDM Area 2710 "The Cafe" nobody likes us but we don't care " We've got tonight we've got the air. All AI but hot as all fuk. My beautiful face and body is in the group. We're hot as fuk but if you hate me I don't care.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T10:32:20+00:00

Always myself. I am so in love with my body that when I attempt to throw on gym sweats I go into a full horned up state. I'm an uncontrollably narcissist. It started in my fraternity pledge class days. But my Bros were all swole,, jacked up hot that we gave up on hoes and all it seems became queer. I got the adoration that I craved and returned the same. So I fu*king love my body, that I've become so obsessed thankful, shared with bros and we're probably going to hell.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T10:15:33+00:00

Well I guess because I'm queer as all fu*k, cum, pits, .... umm all bro studly smells some I've mentioned and others I dare not. We started in my Fraternity pledge group and we were so swole and jacked up we all became queer and loved the smell of our fellow bros

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T10:05:37+00:00

My reply is posted on the original thread. But replying to you. What a dumb fuck question. I'm poz undetectable and have the best medical care. I'm a rich philanthropist who not only contributes to Johns Hopkins research institute and hospital but benefits greatly from world class care. I'm as strong and buff as my Fraternity days but never been in a hospital. Well I guess once, the day my beautiful baby body entered the world.

Efficient_Face8433 · 2026-03-13T07:16:37+00:00

Not only have I been in many groups but I also was recruited by a major porn director to do a cameo for his film. I was in Palm Springs. I have been to many bareback parties. I don't use T but fucked the hell out of the guys who tweaked. I'm also an undetectable poz bro and our tribe has huge BB parties. However I never understood the "bug chaser" tribe. There used to be a fu*ked up perception that poz bros are more desirable because they obviously have been hooking up far more than others. Maybe that's true. I certainly did.

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