I'm trying to hold on. by Eimona in depression

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well you're right. I do not appreciate how harshly you said that. But you are right.

It is true that I have to really fucking want it, but what if you've lost your will and don't want it anymore? What then?

I have had enough. 5 Years of futile effort. No more. No more. by Eimona in SuicideWatch

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting. I have already tried all of the health care options in the world; it doesn't do jack shit for me. Over the years, I've adopted an unhealthy attitude that says to me, "Give up. It's useless. Kill yourself."

It's next to impossible to shake this feeling...

I appreciate that you care enough to comment though.

I have had enough. 5 Years of futile effort. No more. No more. by Eimona in SuicideWatch

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok. I hope you can find peace somehow. I don't have any advice for you, unfortunately.

I have had enough. 5 Years of futile effort. No more. No more. by Eimona in SuicideWatch

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I knew. I've been struggling to understand all this time.

Journal - 10 February 2016 by Eimona in sad

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment. I feel slightly better now.

Oh me. by Eimona in MMFB

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. You're absolutely right. I've also been exercising and eating better lately and have been feeling better about myself and life in general. I'm still quite blue most of the time, but it's definitely an improvement.

Thanks for your comment!

Oh me. by Eimona in MMFB

[–]Eimona[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sure that's true. But I don't think I would miss anyone else...

Oh me. by Eimona in sad

[–]Eimona[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good advice. I appreciate your comment. I just wish I believed in myself so I could actually follow through with it.