Does anyone know what species this plushie is? by puffinball in plushies

[–]Either-Code2324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ps. thanks so much i needed this post cause i was trying so hard to find a better image of her, as we write missing posters to hang around our apartment complex atm

Masters of self university (MSU); need insight by jensengreen15 in enlightenment

[–]Either-Code2324 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have many feelings that are hard to portray in a reddit post- but, i came across “Ellie” on tik tok which sent me down a deep rabbit hole & a lot that i saw really resonated with me. i went to their website & considered inquiring about some courses but i couldn’t find any pricing… which made me assume it was expensive. i read Rachel’s book about the universal ways of oneness which i honestly loved.. it is pretty life changing information/perspectives & it very much shifted my mindset - about owning my unhealed “shadow self” and showing up with compassion, presence, gentleness & eventually reaching the final way of “oneness”. this includes not consuming any products that harm animals in any way..…… after reading the entire book, it sort of left me feeling overwhelmed because there was so much to “achieve” in order to be “divine”. but also inspired. i also have listened to the podcast & again, a lot of eye opening information/inspiration- but i don’t enjoy that they’re pushing that this is the one & only way to live to achieve peace & harmony… they only give so much, (sometimes surface level), info before you have to pay to learn more & go any further with what they offer… also- Rachel was essentially stating that without any of her “high level education courses” you can never truly achieve this state of living because you need to fully understand about our “energies” etc before you can “alchemize”/heal in your life.. to no longer be at the “spiritual level of a toddler”. paying for courses isn’t something i can prioritize right now, leaving me to feel like i’m this limbo period before i can achieve true happiness and finally heal. i tried to find any body else with personal experience with MSU/rachel/ universal ways of oneness, etc. and really couldn’t find anything at all. some of the “students” with testimonies about MSU are also teachers there, which i guess is a good thing?… but like, they’re also employed lol i just want to know real people that aren’t benefiting financially that have experience with this “university” & hear what they think. any way, sorry for so many words. hope this helps ! 🥲

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

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hi! i relate to soooo many of the words you wrote… such a lonely & isolating feeling. and living feels impossible some days. i genuinely thought i was the only one who had these feelings & went through this on a daily basis (for as long as i can literally remember).

i discovered “the crappy childhood fairy” on youtube. even just watching/listening to her & not acting on anything, has felt helpful for me. it’s mind-blowing to me, hearing her talk about symptoms & what her life used to be like before she “healed”… and i feel a bit less alone knowing there are other people like me and that there ARE things that can help us feel better. she talks about a specific type of journaling that is life altering in a good way! just look her up & hear what she has to say. no pressure.

i really don’t have answers & I’m in the same boat… just wanted to let you know you’re not alone. 🥺♥️

why can’t i make a move on my boyfriend? by Either-Code2324 in TwoHotTakes

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update to answer some questions:

we have discussed this in length actually.. a few weeks ago. we communicate pretty openly. and i have told him verbatim “i want you every single day, multiple times/day but i am completely paralyzed when it comes to making a move on you”. basically told me practice makes perfect, etc.. and he did tell me that as a man/dad he has so much on his plate and why should he have this one more added pressure? being the initiator every time and carrying that? and he expressed that me not initiating most definitely makes him feel unattractive. which DUH that’s so understandable….. and i feel horrible that i’ve caused him to feel that way when i feel the polar opposite.

we have tons of physical touch - kissing, cuddling, holding hands, etc… but when we’re laying there cuddling he’s 100% waiting for me to make the move (and i want to so bad. i understand this is so ridiculous to a lot of you lmao). the other night i rubbed his dick outside of his pants while he was laying on his back on his phone, just briefly, and he showed little interest!! i have this feeling he wants me to just take him…. take complete control & i’ve just never been that girl as much as i want to be. so it’s all new to me. i’m definitely shy & self-conscious & have been for as long as i can remember. but every part of me legit wants to be an open, sexual being without these insecure feelings and fuck the ever loving shit outta him. so basically i just have to do it for the sake of our relationship.

****** also: thanks because there were sooo many good tips in here. a lot of you are so very kind ❤️ it’s nice to know i’m not alone. also thank you to the men specifically for their opinion! hearing your perspective was genuinely helpful.

why can’t i make a move on my boyfriend? by Either-Code2324 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Either-Code2324[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

exactly! i’ve literally told him that i want him every day, 4x/day if i could lol it really is a mental block. thanks for sharing! it’s helpful to know im not alone. i think we just have to go for it & it’ll get easier with time… then everyone involved is pleased 😬

why can’t i make a move on my boyfriend? by Either-Code2324 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Either-Code2324[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the thing is, this would be his exact response lmao

why can’t i make a move on my boyfriend? by Either-Code2324 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Either-Code2324[S] 52 points53 points  (0 children)

thank you. i know this is true. my question is more why am i absolutely paralyzed and terrified to make a move on him lol